Disrupting Haldir's World

Chapter 2 - Awakening

Elisabeth grew more anxious as she walked beside Haldir to his talan, though they carried on a pleasant conversation along the way. Joining with one that she barely knew was not something she had ever considered and using her body to repay a debt went against all her beliefs. Of course it could be worse, she thought as she glanced at the elf. Haldir was one of the most handsome males she had ever laid eyes on, as well as being very intelligent and interesting. If this had to happen, it might as well be with him she decided. She knew that the others would never really appreciate what she was doing for them; would never know the price she would actually be paying, but still, a promise was a promise and she was glad to be alive. She looked up as they suddenly stopped at the shore of a pristine lake. Gasping, she took in the beauty of the towering pines surrounding the sandy beaches and dark blue water.

“Do you like it?” Haldir asked, smiling.

“It is beautiful,” she said in awe.

“I thought that we might want to bathe first,” he told her, taking off his tunic. “I still smell the stench of the Uruk-hai on my hands.”

Panic began to overtake Elisabeth as she realized that he meant for her to undress in front of him. She had assumed that they would be under blankets or something when…it happened. Maybe he would not approve of her body and would release her from their deal. Not sure what to do, she stood still as Haldir placed his tunic over a branch and turned towards her. His chest was magnificent and she found herself staring, wondering what it would be like to run her hands over his smooth torso. When he went to unlace his leggings, the panic resurfaced. “Wait!” she said, suddenly.

“Why, would you rather do this yourself?” he asked, smiling slightly.

“No!” she said quickly. “I…I would rather look the other way while you go into the water.”

“Do you think that my body will not please you?” he asked, slightly offended.

“I am sure your body will be quite pleasing, I am simply nervous,” she finally admitted. “I hardly know you.”

“There is nothing to be afraid of,” he told her, smiling again. “We shall bathe and get to know one another better. I will not join with you until we are in my bed.”

She nodded and walked behind a tree to disrobe in private, taking as long as possible. When she knew that she could stall no longer, Elisabeth held the dress in front of her body as she walked towards the lake where Haldir was thankfully already chest deep in the water. She stood and watched him until he reluctantly looked away then she quickly entered the lake after placing her dress on the shore.

Haldir glanced away from the shy human, though he immediately looked back and eyed her almost perfect body as it slipped into the water. She was built larger on top than the elleths he had been with, but he found it rather appealing. In fact, he suddenly found himself growing hard as he thought about what he would do with her. Watching as she quickly sank beneath the water, he smiled as she only came up far enough to allow him to view her from the neck up. There was something compelling about her timidity, he thought as he swam towards her. It would be a challenge to seduce her, but he would not take her unless it was what she wanted.

Elisabeth thought the water felt wonderful and felt days of road grime rinse away. When she came up out of the water, she was careful not to rise up too far and give him more of a view than she wanted, though he would see everything he wished eventually. Her eyes grew big as he swam towards her and she fought the urge to move away from him, but instead she forced herself to stay as he approached. When he stood in front of her, she once again admired his smooth, muscled body, though she kept her arms crossed, not giving him a chance to view her the same way. She did not know how well he could see through the water but did not wish to take a chance.

“Turn around,” he told her, holding up the soap for her to see.

She did as requested and he used the soap on her hair first. A small sound of pleasure escaped her throat she felt his fingers working the lather through her hair. His touch on her scalp was exquisite. When he was done he told her she could rinse and she did so, swishing her hair around under the water until it was completely clean.

“It is your turn,” he told her, causing her to turn towards him. He handed her the soap and she helped him to undo his braids. He had wonderful hair and she enjoyed running her fingers through it as much as she had enjoyed having him wash her hair. Apparently he also liked it, based on the contented look in his eyes when she was done. He ducked under the water and rinsed the soap away before emerging from the water again, closer than he had been before. Her eyes never left his as he closed the distance between them and touched his lips to hers. She felt the spark again and gasped, wondering if he had also felt it.

“Soap,” he said, suddenly, his voice not sounding normal to his ears. He held up the bar and smiled. “Turn around and I shall wash your back.”

She turned and tried to remain relaxed as he ran the soap over her back and down to the end of her spine. He groaned as he felt her perfectly curved backside and had to fight his need to take her right then. She was skittish and he did not want to scare her, wanting her first experience with an elf to be a pleasurable one. Reaching around slowly to her front, he soaped up her flat stomach and carefully worked his way up to cup her full breasts. She made a small sound and it was almost too much for him. At that moment, he wanted nothing more than to plunge himself into her soft flesh until she screamed out his name. Instead, he smoothed the hair away from her neck and softly kissed her in the hollow above her shoulder. Slowly he began turning her around until she faced him, continuing to kiss her the entire time. He worked his way from her neck up to her lips and this time deepened the kiss, forcing her mouth open.

Elisabeth had never been kissed before, much less kissed like this. The feel of the open mouthed kiss shocked her at first, before she eventually lost herself in the pleasure of it, allowing her tongue to touch his as he explored the inside of her mouth. This was not at all what she had expected and she wondered if maybe the rest wasn’t going to be as terrible as she had been led to believe, either. Haldir pulled her closer and she put her arms around his neck, but suddenly tensed up again as she felt his arousal pressed against her stomach. He continued kissing her and she began to relax once more, growing more accustomed to the feel of him against her. After a few more moments, he finally pushed himself away, breathing hard.

“We need to stop now or I will not be able to wait until we reach my bed,” he told her, eyes filled with desire. He quickly washed the rest of his body and rinsed off in the lake after handing her the soap. As he walked out of the water, she meant to look away but couldn’t help but examine his perfect body as he emerged from the water. Glancing back, he caught her looking at him and smiled. He turned around to face her when he took his tunic from the tree and she looked away quickly, but not before she saw how large he was. She honestly did not see how it was going to fit. She turned around so that he could not see her as she finished washing herself, stalling for time as much as anything.

“Elisabeth, I think that you are clean now,” he told her, several minutes later as he pulled his leggings back on.

“Yes, I suppose I am,” she replied, reluctantly. Slowly, she swam towards where her dress lay on the shore. She handed him the soap and asked if he could turn around while she got out of the water.

“No, I would like to see you,” he insisted.

Sighing, she pulled her waist length hair in front, covering her breasts, but he stopped her.

“Elisabeth,” he said, forcing her eyes towards his. “I wish to see all of you.”

She nodded and took a deep breath before walking out of the water, embarrassed to look at him at first, but oddly thrilled when she finally did and saw how he was gazing at her. She had seen men look at her with desire before, but never the way that Haldir now regarded her and she was surprised to find her nipples growing hard as her body reacted to his stare. A small sound of anguish escaped his lips and she wondered if he were in pain. He had been very hard for quite some time now, and from the conversations she’d overhead between the other women, she had surmised that this could be quite painful. Well, he wouldn’t be hurting for long because she saw by the look in his eyes that he meant to have her soon. She dressed quickly, though her body was still wet, and followed him to a nearby mallorn tree. As his brother had done earlier, Haldir made his way up and lowered a rope ladder for her to use. Elisabeth had no problem making her way to the top and he smiled as she stepped onto the flet.

“According to my brother, climbing the rope ladder was quite an ordeal for some of the other women,” he told her, smiling.

“Oh,” she returned his smile. “I spent half of my childhood in the trees with my brothers. Apparently climbing isn’t something one forgets how to do. So this is a flet?”

“Yes, or talan, as we call it,” he said, showing her around. She liked the way it was open to the outside, yet covered above in case it rained. The main platform had a small table with two chairs and a few pillows piled together in the center. He took her hand and led her up some stairs carved into the tree and they came to a smaller area that held a wardrobe and more noticeably, a bed. Suddenly nervous again, Elisabeth’s throat tightened as Haldir turned her to face him and lowered his mouth to hers. Before she knew what had happened, he had undone the buttons on her dress and it lay pooled around her feet. She covered her chest, knowing that her chemise did not conceal much.

“Don’t,” he said, slipping the rest of her clothing from her body and pulling her close. The feel of his bare chest against hers was exhilarating and she let out a small sigh. He kissed her again as he took her hands and lowered them to the top of his leggings.

“Undress me, Elisabeth,” he whispered into her ear.

She had to look down to see how the leggings worked and she found laces that she would have to untie. As she fumbled with them, she accidentally brushed against the bulge in his leggings and he groaned, grabbing her hand and placing it over his erection. She stiffened instantly, not sure what he wanted and not sure she wanted to touch him there. He sensed her reluctance and began to kiss her softly, distracting her as she began to react to his kisses. He deepened the kiss and at the same time he slowly began to move her hand up and down his length, allowing her to grow used to the feel of it.

“Untie the laces, Elisabeth,” he whispered again as he kissed her ear, causing a small sound to escape her lips. She reached down and finished loosening the ties before carefully slipping the leggings over his hips and down his legs. She knelt down so that she could reach his ankles and the sight of her kneeling in front of him caused him to bite back another groan. He wanted to feel her mouth on him, but he knew that it was too soon. She had obviously not had much experience or else she had had a bad experience and he was determined to make this good for her as well as for himself. He forced himself to look away as she finished pulling the leggings off of him.

Elisabeth was also looking away, trying to ignore what was right in front of her face, but it wasn’t easy. She glanced again as she stood, once more wondering how it was ever going to fit. No wonder the women always complained when they talked about the men that they…serviced. It must hurt terribly. Well, they would hopefully only be here for a few days before being on their way to Rohan. Elisabeth could handle anything for a short time, she hoped. Standing again to face Haldir, he lifted her easily into his arms, moving towards the bed. His mouth found hers again and didn’t leave it until he carefully placed her on the thick blankets. She was tense again, but she couldn’t help it. She was sure that it was going to hurt and she hoped that it would be over soon. Haldir saw the fear in her eyes and spoke quietly to her as he joined her on the bed, telling her how beautiful she was, how badly he desired her. Taking his time, he kissed her neck as he let his hands move over her body, gradually letting her become acclimated to his touch. She tensed as his hands cupped her breast, but as he began to softly caress her with his thumb, she started to feel something surge through her body; a feeling she had never felt before. It ran from her chest down to her stomach and lower. When his mouth left her neck and moved down to join his hand at her breast she gasped with pleasure. His tongue began doing magical things as he ran it over one nipple then on to the other. She moaned, unable to stop the sound before it escaped. The sounds she was making excited him further and he had to remind himself once more to take it slow, though it was becoming more difficult all the time.

Allowing his hand to wander slowly down her body, he slid himself further down, giving himself better access to her breasts. Carefully, he began to run his hands up and down her smooth legs, anxious to feel them wrapped around his waist.

Elisabeth felt as though her body was on fire. The things Haldir was now doing to her were incredible and as he ran his hands up her legs she thought that she had never known anything to feel so wonderful. When his hand moved from the outside of her leg to the inside she tensed again but soon lost herself to the feelings of pleasure she was experiencing. She flinched when he first touched her center, but after only a few moments of his touch in this most private of places, she found herself pushing against his hand, wanting more. If she had thought the other things he had been doing felt pleasant, they were nothing compared to this. She gasped with pleasure and ran her hands over his body, wanting him and not knowing what to do to end the longing she was now feeling.

“What…what should I do?” she asked him, gasping for breath. “What feels good to you?”

“Is this what you want, Elisabeth?” he asked finally as he continued to pleasure her. “I do not wish to take you against your will.”

“But…the payment,” she said, not wanting him to stop.

“I will consider your payment fulfilled. I have enjoyed the time you have already spent with me. I would prefer to continue, but it is your decision.”

“Yes, I…I want you,” she surprised her self by saying the words.

“Then touch me,” he told her, lowering her hand and placing her fingers around his thick shaft and showing her what he liked. Unsure at first, she quickly learned what rhythm he enjoyed and the look of pleasure on his face gave her satisfaction, knowing that she was bringing him as much pleasure as he was bringing her. Suddenly he stilled her hand, closing his eyes.

“Did I do something wrong?” she asked, worried.

“Oh, no, not at all,” he laughed. “I just do not wish it to be over too quickly, so you need to stop for now.”

“Then what should I do?” she asked.

“What do you normally do?” he asked, lowering his face to kiss her naval and dropping lower.

“Normally,” she repeated, realizing that he still didn’t understand exactly how inexperienced she was. Reaching her hands down, she ran her fingers through his hair as he went even lower, finally lifting her legs onto his shoulders. She cried out when he began to use his tongue on her and she pushed up towards him, though he held her in place with his hands.

“Has no one ever done this to you before?” he asked.

“No,” she admitted, her voice strained.

As she grew close to reaching her peak, he slipped a finger inside. Her eyes flew open and she started to sit up.

“Are you…?”

“It is only my finger so far,” he told her. “I want to be sure that you are ready.”

She laid her head back down and made herself relax. She wanted him inside her now and only hoped it wouldn’t hurt too badly.

“Haldir, will it hurt?” she asked, hoping he would know the answer.

“It should not,” he said, moving his finger around inside her. A suspicion suddenly crossed his mind.

“Elisabeth, has it hurt you before?”

“Before what?” she asked.

“When you have joined with men, before,” he asked, his frown deepening as his suspicions grew.

“Oh,” she understood. “I told you that I was inexperienced.”

He moved his finger further and felt what he was searching for. His suspicions were confirmed.

“You are a virgin,” he stated, pulling his hand away.

“I thought that I had made that clear,” she told him, wanting his hand back.

“No, you had not made it clear,” he said, letting out a huge sigh as he rolled away from her, covering his eyes with the back of his arm. “There is a difference between not being a prostitute and being a virgin. There is still a whole lot of area in between the two. I had assumed you leaned more towards the innocent end of the spectrum, but I never dreamed…”

“Why does it matter?” she asked, wanting his hands back on her, wanting him inside her.

He turned to look at her and felt a terrible stab of guilt at what he had almost done. “It matters because while I knew that you were not like the others, I had assumed that you were…experienced. I felt something I had never felt before when I placed my palm on your forehead and I knew that I wanted you but I will not take your virginity as payment, Elisabeth. I wish I had known and this would not have gone as far as it has.”

“I see,” she said. “I suppose that now you will want to return me and trade me for one of the others.”

“Is that not what you wanted in the first place?” he asked, curious as to why she was hurting now.
“You tried to get me to take you back, remember?”

“I…yes…no, not really,” she told him, trying to keep her voice steady. “I was concerned about my first experience being meaningless; payment for services. But I felt like you wanted to be with me; you made me feel special.”

She got out of the bed feeling stupid as she searched for her clothes. She felt her face burning as she dressed herself, trying to hide her hurt from him.

Haldir watched Elisabeth as she put her dress back on, knowing she was hurt but not knowing what to do about it. He would not take her virginity from her just to satisfy his lust for a few days, no matter how badly he wanted to do it. That would hurt her much more in the long run. He rose and put his own clothes back on.

“Let us go back to the others,” he said quietly.

“Which one will you choose now?” she asked, hating herself for asking as she put her shoes on.

“Which one do you think I should choose?” he asked.

“I suppose that Kate is the most beautiful,” she answered reluctantly.

“So I should choose her?” he asked, lacing his leggings back up.

“Possibly. Aggie is the oldest and the most experienced. I am sure she would give you the…enjoyment you require while we are here. Men seem to like Judith’s body the most, from what I hear. Cecilia is the most…adventuresome and I suppose that Faye is the nicest. I am sure any one of them will give you what you wish if I cannot.”

“And what do you honestly think, Elisabeth? Whom should I choose,” he asked, touching her face.

“You should choose me, Haldir,” she said meeting his gaze. “You should finish what you began.”

He stared at her for a long moment before crushing his mouth to hers. When he pulled away, he saw the hope in her eyes and closed his.

“Let us go,” he said, leading the way back down the ladder. She followed him silently not understanding how somebody she had met only a few hours earlier could have affected her so. Something had happened today when he had touched her head and she could not explain it. She sighed. In reality, she had probably become infatuated with him because of the things he had done to her and the way he had made her feel. He was obviously experienced at this sort of thing. But what about the spark she had felt and what of the desire she had seen in his eyes? Would she see it also as he chose one of the other women? Probably, she told herself, swallowing the lump in her throat.

When they arrived back at the camp, she tried to make her face expressionless. She would be mocked mercilessly when the others realized he was bringing her back to trade her for another and though she would survive, the shame would be terrible.

As they approached the camp, he told her, “Elisabeth, I am not going to choose one of the other women. None of them interested me. Does that make you happy?”

“Yes,” she said, smiling at him just a little.

He smiled back then climbed up to the first talan but stopped and motioned for her to go back down before she got onto the platform. Checking the adjoining talan, he finally told her to stay on the ground. Several minutes passed before he returned to her and took her hand, leading her back the way they had just come.

“Now, that is ironic,” he told her quietly as they walked away.

“What is?” she asked.

“I was the one who was supposed to receive payment today and it appears as though I am the only one who has not. Everybody else is currently occupied at the moment.”

“All of them?” she asked, shocked.

“All of them,” he answered. “Even your beloved Rowland.”

“He is not my beloved,” she replied, a little irritated. “He just doesn’t understand that yet.”

“He seems decent enough and he cares for you,” Haldir replied. “He would make you a good mate.”

“Are you joking?” she asked.

He simply looked at her as they walked.

“I cannot imagine him making me feel the way you did today,” she told him, honestly. “I do not feel a spark rush through my body when I think about him.”

He glanced at her, then quickly away. “I do not wish to…use you, Elisabeth. You are worth more than that.”

“So it would be better for me never to experience what we almost had today? I understand that it would only be for a few days, but I would rather have a short time with you than to never feel what we can give each other.”

He appeared to be lost in thought as they walked along and when they once again reached his talan, he motioned for her to climb up.

“I guess you will have to sleep here tonight since the other telain are all currently occupied. You may have my bed and I shall sleep on the floor.”

“Can we not share the bed?” she asked. “I will promise not to take advantage of you while you sleep if that is your concern. I do not wish you to give up your bed to me.”

“It is not you that I do not trust,” he told her, lying down on the pillows in the center of the floor.

She sighed and climbed the stairs to the bedroom where she stripped down to her chemise and climbed beneath the blankets, wishing that Haldir were in bed with her.

~~tbc~~