The journal

Title: The journal.
Author: Fishy
Feedback: fishyz9@yahoo.com
Pairing: Erestor/Glorfindel
Rating: R, NC17
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Notes: Un-beta’d
Summary: The twins accidentally give away one of Glorfindel’s best kept secrets.


The journal.


Part 1.

Where is it? Where is it?! How could he be this careless?! Glorfindel had paced back and forth as a caged animal in his quarters, frantically trying to think of where he had left his journal. It was not in his office, the barracks or his quarters, where could it be?! Glorfindel sat on the edge of his bed and buried his face in the palms of his hands. If anyone read that journal he would be a laughing stock. He stood bolt upright and left his rooms, if he had to search the whole of Imladris he would, he could not let anyone read that journal.

He walked slowly now, dragging his feet as he mindlessly wandered the many corridors of Imladris. It was hopeless, he couldn’t find it. His attention was drawn to the sound of laughter coming up from ahead, he stopped outside the door from which the now hysterical fits of laughter were now coming from. Oddly enough it was Erestor’s office, laughter and Erestor’s office were not two things that he would usually associate together. After a moment of listening outside the office door he recognised the amused identical voices, it was of course the twins who were splitting their sides with laughter.

“Oh, oh Erestor listen to this one, ‘his lips, so red and supple. What I would give to taste them, to have them taste me back. To hear words of love spill from them, to feel them upon my person…” It was Elladan who was speaking that could apparently no longer finish what he was saying as he dissolved into fits of laughter.

Glorfindel felt his heart sink, it had been found, by the twins no less. He again buried his face in his hands as he cringed, how could he face Erestor now? He felt his heart race with fear as he this time listened to Elrohir recite some of his oh so private, personal and beyond terrible poetry that he had written about Erestor.

“Valar Erestor listen to this! ‘his eyes so hypnotic and seductive, I find myself following his every movement, following his subtle but beautiful curves. How I wish to taste him, all of him, I would defy any Valar or higher being for one sweet kiss. I would burn the world to ash to bury myself within him, to feel him writhe beneath him, to make him scream’ I could be wrong Erestor, but methinks you have an admirer!”

Glorfindel snapped his eyes open, they didn’t know who’s journal it was! But if they continued to read it they soon would, and he would have to leave Imladris, or fade from embarrassment, either way he would not be able to ever look Erestor in the eye if the advisor found out it was he who wrote such inappropriate literature about him. Not giving it a second thought or taking a moment to come up with an excuse for his presence he burst through the office doors. He swallowed hard at the site that greeted him, Erestor sat at his desk obviously trying his hardest to ignore the twins, but sported a fierce blush and a scowl as he tried to continue with his work. The twins stood leaning upon each other, tears streaming down their faces as they howled with laughter. Upon seeing Glorfindel they used each other for support as they tried to right themselves until they could stand without falling over with laughter.

“Glor-Glorfindel, come, come read this!” Elladan giggled as he waved the warrior over.

“There is a person who resides in Imladris that is madly in love with our dear advisor!”
“Boys I do actually have work to do! So if you would not mind…Get out!” Erestor bellowed, clearly embarrassed.

“What, what do you have there?” The blond asked nervously, trying to act casual and oblivious.

“’tis a journal of some sort, dedicated to lustful musings of our dear beloved Erestor!”
“And, where did you find it?”
“We found it beneath the willow in the courtyard, just laying there!”

Glorfindel was careful not to cry out and roll his eyes, the courtyard beneath the willow! That was where he had left it!

“I said enough!” Erestor had finally lost his temper after suffering such embarrassment, he snatched the small leather encased journal and slung it into a small basket of rubbish by his desk. “Is there anything I can do for you Glorfindel or have you come here to aggravate me also?”

“I..I, no, I just came to remind you both that you are expected on the training grounds in a few minutes, I was passing and heard you in here.” He had said as he turned and addressed the twins.

“Ah thank you Glorfindel, I fear if you had not of reminded us we would of forgotten completely, for we were having such fun.” Elladan teased as he turned with a cheeky grin to Erestor who merely ignored the young elf, they were only young boys after all, only a few years short of their majority.
“Come Elrohir, let us away.” The boys exited the office making their way to the training grounds, their laughter could still be heard as they walked the corridors.

“Glorfindel is there anything I can do for you? I am busy.” Erestor had snapped, a blush still staining his usually pale skin.

“I…so, who do you think wrote it?” Glorfindel asked shakily.
“I do not know nor do I care, if there is nothing else Glorfindel…”
“No I’ll, I’ll leave you to your work then.” He muttered before hastily exiting the office. Giving the journal in the basket one last glance before leaving. He would come back tonight when Erestor had retired to retrieve it, then he would burn it so this would never happened again.

~~~~~~

Erestor swiped his hand over his face, it had been a long day. Not only was his desk overflowing with documents that needed his signature, there had been the incident with the twins. He was not quite sure what to make of the whole situation, but was positive it was someone out to humiliate him or make fun at his expense. Yes it must be quite amusing to think that someone, anyone would desire him, cranky, boring Erestor. He eyed the journal for a moment before lifting it out of the basket to inspect it at a closer proximity.

It was a leather clad small note book, bendable and one he suspected a person would be able to take with them almost anywhere, due to its size and flexibility. He flipped open the pages hoping he would recognise the handwriting but was unsuccessful. It was a fine hand, but written in a casual manner, for no others to see. Unable to abate his own curiosity he read one of the passages that Elladan had rudely recited earlier and felt his cheeks flush. This was obviously written by some sort of lustful cretin, he cared not for such people.

He sank into his large intimidating chair in which he loved above all other furniture, he loved his chair, due to the fact it also swivelled. He turned so that he could rest his feet upon his desk, and so that his back was mostly to the door. He continued to flick through the pages, he paused and turned back a couple of pages when he came across something that had caught his eye. It was a small sketch of him, a small simple sketch of him. The owner of the journal was no great artist, but the picture put a small smile upon his face none the less. Perhaps this person was not just one lustful elf.

He continued to flick through the pages, every so often finding another small sketch. He had immersed himself in the reading so much that he did not even realise the late hour, or that the candle he read by had almost completely melted down to the holder. He had read most of the passages, a lot of them spoke of the wicked things this elf wished to do to his body, to which his body, unbeknownst to him had reacted and become aroused.

His heart melted however when reading one passage:
‘What I think I love most about him, the smile lines around his eyes, so rarely seen. His gentleness, oh others may think him cold, but I for one have never seen another so passionate, so capable of love. How can one so quick to temper not be the most passionate of creatures? I see the tenderness beneath the facade, he should be loved, he deserves to be loved with such a fierce intensity that would shatter any lesser elf. If only I could find the courage to offer him it.’

Erestor took a deep shuddering breath and was surprised to feel his eyes sting. Oh how he hoped this was no jest, for he would not recover if this was but a source of quick entertainment and amusement for another. He turned the pages and came across many other similar declarations of love, and when he again came across the more lustful verses they no longer seemed to be crude, or spoken out of nothing else save bodily need. It seemed to him that words spoke of deep longing and love.

Continuing to read the text Erestor became more and more aroused, the passages becoming more explicit making his heart race and his groin tighten.

‘I would sink into him slowly, pull every inch of my throbbing relentless member out before plunging back in, making him cry my name. I would kiss him and swallow his cries of passion, I would touch him, every part of him, inside and out. I would kiss his soft curves and love him tenderly as he is the most precious creature upon this earth. But I would not deny him passion, I would love him hard and brutally just as I would soft and tenderly, I would bend to his every whim, I was made to love him.’

Erestor’s eyes rolled back into his head as he groaned, he had never read anything so moving, so beautiful, so arousing. Giving one quick glance to the door Erestor noted that it was open a crack but cared not, all had retired, he would not be disturbed. Taking his feet off of his desk he turned in his chair so that his back was to the door before sliding his hand into the folds of his robe to grasp at his aching length. He moaned aloud at the sensation, slow strokes became frenzied, small sighs became moans, he had never before in all his life felt so hard in his entire life.

~~~~~~

Glorfindel quietly made his way to Erestor’s office, it was late at night and he was sure that all were asleep. So it was quietly that he walked down the hallway, and found himself standing at the advisors door. He couldn’t risk anyone else reading anymore of his journal, so he would retrieve it and make sure it was never found again. He was about to enter without a second thought before he noticed a faint light from within, silently he peeked through the crack in the door. There was a candle still lit, it had very almost diminished but was still burning. It was unlike Erestor to leave a candle burning in his office, stepping into the office silently he soon realised that Erestor had not yet left. His brow furrowed in confusion at the soft sighs he could hear coming from Erestor who was sitting with the chair back towards him.

He took another step forward intent on finding out what was wrong with Erestor but froze in his tracks as he saw his journal, laying open on the desk. His heart thundered in his chest at what that could mean, did Erestor know? Hearing another sigh and what sounded like a moan Glorfindel walked towards the desk quietly, not yet wanting to give away his presence. He looked over the top of the chair and felt all the blood in his body drain to one particular organ upon seeing Erestor. Erestor sat there slouched in his chair, his eyes closed tightly with his teeth biting down firmly on his bottom lip. But what made Glorfindel’s heart pound in his chest and his groin feel aflame was what the councillor was doing. Glorfindel moved until he stood behind the chair looking down upon Erestor who had raised his robes and was frantically stroking himself. Glorfindel felt his mouth grow dry, had his journal had this effect on Erestor? It must have, for it lay flat open on the desk. Swallowing hard he decided that it was now or never, he knelt down beside the chair until his head was a mere inch from Erestor’s.

Erestor, still oblivious to Glorfindel’s presence continued to moan and stroke himself with his eyes closed tight. It was only when he heard a husky voice whisper in his ear that he opened his eyes wide in shock and turned to the one that kneeled beside him.

“Erestor let me…”
“Glorfindel!” Erestor near screamed in shock as he frantically tried to cover himself, blushing a deep red that was not lost in the dim light.
“Nay do not do that, don’t cover yourself.” Glorfindel never knew his voice could sound so deep. As he spoke he swivelled the chair until he crouched before it, cutting off Erestor’s only exit. The advisor seemed to sink into the back of his chair, looking utterly humiliated and stunned he opened and closed his mouth a few times before he could actually speak.

“I..I was…what are you doing here?”
“I came to collect my journal.” He had said simply. He smiled when Erestor’s eyes seemed to widen further.
“Your…journal?” Erestor whispered.
“My….journal.” The blond replied playfully as he gently touched Erestor’s knees and spread them apart so he could kneel between them. Glorfindel lifted the robe up Erestor’s trembling legs, stroking them as he did so until the advisors weeping cock came back into view.

“Allow me to finish what you started?” He asked huskily as he looked up into Erestor’s shocked face.

“Your journal?” Erestor whispered again, unable to say anything else. When he realised that his erect length was exposed Erestor quickly tried to hide it by gathering his robes around him, only to have Glorfindel take hold of his hands.

“Please Erestor?” Glorfindel asked pleadingly, he kissed the hands he held sweetly before setting them on the arm rests. Gently he took Erestor by the waist and pulled him forward so that he slouched further in the seat. With a hopeful smile Glorfindel leaned on the arm rests and reached to touch his lips to Erestor’s. Both closed their eyes, when their lips were almost touching Erestor spoke in small voice.

“Is this a joke?”
“What?” Glorfindel opened his eyes to see Erestor sitting with his eyes closed tightly with a worried expression on his face.
“Is this a joke? Because if it is it is not funny…” he opened his eyes to look sadly at Glorfindel who was still incredibly close, “…you have had your fun and no doubt you will enjoy humiliating me in the morrow, but do not play with my feelings, ’tis cruel.”
“Erestor I, how could you…did you not read what I wrote about you?”
“I did, but they are just words, aye they are…the most romantic words I have ever read but anyone can write such words and not truly mean them. What are you doing? And why?”

Glorfindel could see that Erestor would need some convincing, taking the journal from the desk he placed it in Erestor’s hands.
“Read.”
“What?”
“Read my words Erestor, out loud.”

Erestor looked briefly confused but as Glorfindel did not move or blink he began to read one of the passages on a random page out loud.

“His smiles are as rare as the finest jewel, but when unveiled is more breathtaking than a thousand sunsets and rises. It is a but a small quirk of his lips, but such a small action unveils other unearthly delights to me. The small dimples either side of cheeks, so sweet and enchanting. But there is nothing more stunning than when his smile reaches…”

Glorfindel lowered the book in Erestor’s hands but continued the passage, never breaking eye contact.

“…Reaches his eyes, Ai help me, those eyes…” Glorfindel raised his hand to tenderly stroke a high cheek bone, “those eyes steal my breath and still my heart. One look and I am lost, and I know my sole purpose for living is to love him, he is my prince, my love.”

Erestor continued to look at Glorfindel unsurely.
“Truly?” The advisor whispered
“Aye my prince.” The blond replied with such sweet sincerity.

Erestor could not help but smile shyly as he nervously lifted his hand to touch Glorfindel’s lips lightly with his finger tips. Glorfindel’s breath shuddered at the soft touch, he closed his eyes as Erestor’s hand hesitantly touched and cupped his cheek. Leaning into the touch with a soft sigh he held the hand that touched him tenderly before turning and kissing its palm. He only just contained his gasp as he saw Erestor nervously lean forward in his chair. He leaned forward to meet Erestor half way, their lips touched so softly in the most innocent of kisses. When they parted Erestor smiled broadly as Glorfindel exhaled slowly before finally opening his eyes.

Having had a sweet taste of the lips he had coveted for so long Glorfindel leaned forward again, pressing his lips against Erestor’s with more pressure so that Erestor was pushed back in his chair. Glorfindel, seemingly unable to understand that he was finally kissing Erestor would touch the lips gently with his finger tips of both hands as he pulled back ever so often to look upon Erestor, as if to remind himself of who it was he was kissing.

“Glorfindel…” Was the only word he could get out as he was continuously kissed.
“Yes?” More kisses.
“I…its late, I should retire.” Erestor had said whilst tactfully covering himself, there was a long pause before Glorfindel was able to speak, trying hard to mask his disappointment.

“Of course.” He whispered. His heart sank ever so slightly when Erestor handed him back the journal before standing.

They walked quietly through the corridors, Glorfindel continuously glancing at Erestor, wondering where this left them but felt unable to voice his concerns. When they came to a turning they both seemed to bump into each other as Erestor turned to take the right corridor and Glorfindel the left, where Erestor’s quarters were located.

“I would walk you to your chambers Erestor.”
“Oh, I, I thought that we would go to your chambers…” He whispered, but seeing Glorfindel’s eyes go wide he realised that perhaps he had read the situation incorrectly, blushing furiously he lowered his head.”…Oh I, I’m sorry I thought, that was forward of me, I apologize I misunderstood.”
“You wish to come to my chambers?” Glorfindel said in a not so quiet voice, forgetting momentarily to whisper to which Erestor’s blush seemed to intensify.
“I thought you wanted…it would appear I have become confused, good eve Glorfindel.” Erestor nodded and turned to the left corridor but was stopped as Glorfindel pulled him back gently by the arm.

“You wish to stay the night in my quarters?”
“I, would you like me to?”
“You know it is my greatest desire Erestor.”

Erestor seemed to tilt his head to the side and shyly nod, Glorfindel slipped his hand from Erestor’s upper arm down to the advisors hand and entwined their fingers sweetly. Giving Erestor an adoring smile he pulled the hand he held down the right corridor.

Glorfindel had closed the door to his chambers quietly behind him and watched as Erestor coyly took in his surroundings. Erestor was actually in his rooms, and they would be laying in the same bed, Glorfindel felt suddenly overwhelmed with need, passion, love and nerves. He stepped behind Erestor who was still curiously looking about the rooms with a nervous smile. Laying his hands on Erestor’s upper arms he squeezed them gently as he buried his head in the crook of his neck and inhaled deeply.

“Nothing has to happen Erestor, I would court you.” He whispered as he continued to nuzzle his neck.

Erestor looked over his shoulder before turning to face Glorfindel. He slowly trailed his hands up the length of Glorfindel’s stomach and chest smiling shyly. His lips quirked in amusement at the blissful smile on Glorfindel’s face as he let his hands rest on the warriors shoulders and neck.

“You would?”
“Of course.”
“I think I would like that, perhaps it would be wise. I must admit, I have never really thought of you in this way before. I had always noticed how fair you are…” Erestor paused and grinned at the red tint that graced the warriors cheeks, “ but I never thought in my wildest dreams that the attraction would be returned.”
“More than attracted Erestor, so much more.” Glorfindel said almost desperately as he placed his hand over his heart, to which Erestor calmly took the hand and placed it back on his waist as he leaned his body against Glorfindel’s, resting his head against Glorfindel’s chest and sighed as the warrior pulled him closer in a sweet embrace.

“And I think it is because of that that you are right, you speak words of love to me. Yet before this evening I, this is just so new, and unexpected.”
“I understand Erestor, truly.”
“May I still stay the night?”
“You thought I would let you leave?” He smiled charmingly as he tightened his arms about Erestor.

His breath caught however when Erestor began to unhook the clasps of his tunic. Hearing the gasp Erestor looked up and smiled as Glorfindel swallowed nervously.

“You do not sleep with your clothes on do you?”
“Nay.” He laughed in response.
“Would you mind if I undressed you then?”
“No please, continue. Though you will have to forgive me if…if…” Glorfindel closed his eyes in embarrassment as he tried to nod down at his groin where his leggings seemed ready to split. It was Erestor’s chuckle that made him open his eyes again.

“it’s alright, I fare little better.” He pressed his body against Glorfindel’s to prove his point, both seemed to stifle moans at the contact.

“’tis good to know.” A shaky voice whispered.

When all clasps were freed Erestor was unable to hide his admiration and sudden fear as he near gawked at Glorfindel’s muscular stature, delectable and toned.

“I find myself somewhat…apprehensive for you to, see me disrobed.” The advisor admitted shyly.
“Why?”
“You, outshine me Glorfindel, a thousand times over. Are you sure it is I you want?”
“Never have I been so sure of anything in my life.” He shrugged out of his tunic, letting it fall to the floor.
“I think I am beginning to regret this courting notion Glorfindel.” Erestor had said with a hitched breath as he reached out to brush the chest, feeling his groin ache.

The blond laughed as he made quick work of the front of Erestor’s robe, he bit his lip as he let the robe fall to the floor. Creamy white, unblemished flesh came into view. Erestor’s muscles were not as defined or robust as his own, they were subtle, toned but not defined. What made Glorfindel’s heart pound the most though was its creaminess, with two small red nubs stood out, almost the same shade as the dark elf’s lips. Erestor stood there with his head bowed, unable to meet Glorfindel’s eyes as he shifted nervously on the spot.

Glorfindel was unable to stop himself as he let a hand trail up along Erestor’s arm and down his chest to rest at his waist before running up the side of the slim back. He marvelled at how the skin felt as silk beneath his touch.

“So soft.” As if transfixed Glorfindel let his finger tips glide along a collarbone and along the soft curve of the neck.
“Boots.”
“Hmm?”
“Take off your boots.” Erestor had said with a smile and watched as Glorfindel did so as he stepped out of his own shoes.

“These too?” Glorfindel asked as his hands came to settle on the waist band of the advisors leggings.

Erestor nodded stiffly and closed his eyes as he felt his leggings carefully pulled down past his thighs and knees to pool on the floor. Steeping out of the leggings he now stood completely bare to Glorfindel but unable to meet his gaze. Not until his chin was tilted upwards to meet blue eyes.

“Would you help me?” The blond asked.

Shakily Erestor reached for Glorfindel’s leggings and began to pull loose the laces to then push down firm thighs and calf’s. Erestor felt his cheeks burn as he gaze locked onto Glorfindel’s apposing arousal. It was a strange comparison but to him Glorfindel’s arousal was alike to a blooming flower, and he laughed aloud at his own thoughts.

“What is so amusing?” Asked Glorfindel perplexed and slightly offended but still with a small smile.
“It is like a rose.”
“What?” Glorfindel asked with a chuckle.
“It has the likeness of a rose, from its long stem…” Erestor trailed two of his finger tips along the underside of Glorfindel’s hard length, drawing a ragged breath from the blond. “To its blooming head, the shade of a rose, or your blush.” Erestor noted with a giggle, “it even releases a sweet nectar…” Erestor spoke seductively as he wiped away a drop pf pre-cum from the small slit, “for such a hungry little bee, such as myself.” Erestor lifted his finger to his finger to his mouth to lick away the small drop, while at the same time looking to Glorfindel who moaned and watched with mouth hanging open ever so slightly and eyes dark and glazed with need.

“You are making this very hard for me Erestor.”
“Evidently.” The advisor smirked again looking to the straining length.
“Come, let us rest before I loose all self control you tease.” The warrior chuckled.

Taking Erestor by the hand he walked to the bed and pulled down the sheets before motioning for him to get in. Once Erestor was settled he climbed in himself, once he too was settled he looked to Erestor almost shyly before moving closer to rest his head on the advisors chest, wrapping his entire body around the one he lay against. The warrior sighed in contentment as he felt an arm fold around his back and another run through his hair.

“You have no idea how much I have dreamed of this very moment.”
“Then awake, for I am here.”

The first thing Glorfindel noted when he woke was the warm softness he laid upon and a steady beat in his ear. Blinking away the sleep he realised that it was Erestor he laid upon and it was the dark elf’s heartbeat that drummed in his ear, as his head still lay upon the advisors chest. He closed his eyes and listened to the beating heart for a few moments and inexplicably began to cry silently. He had never heard anything as beautiful as that heartbeat, and felt an overwhelming sense of peace and contentment. After wiping away all traces of tears he looked up to a still slumbering Erestor, he was so beautiful. His dark eyes vacant in reverie, lips slightly apart and pouted, dark hair adorably tousled. Proving to much of a temptation he stretched along the length of Erestor’s body so that he could reach the soft lips, already open and inviting and awoke Erestor with a loving kiss. When they pulled apart and Erestor smiled lazily at him, he finally said something that he had been longing to have the privilege to say Erestor for as long as he could remember.

“Good morning my lover.”

Finally and after many shared kisses Erestor had departed for his own chambers to make ready for the day. The second the advisor had left Glorfindel’s hand had dived beneath the covers to stroke away the throbbing ache that had resulted in holding Erestor so close the entire night. It was with cheeks flushed and eyes closed tight that he began to stroked harder and faster just as Erestor had decided to walk back into the chambers unannounced moments after he had only just left. Glorfindel’s eyes flew open and his blush intensified tenfold as Erestor stood there frozen to the spot with his mouth open.

“Oh damn! I ..uh..” Glorfindel babbled as he pulled the sheets closer to him, unknowingly causing a more defined outline of his member, a damp spot appearing on the sheets where pre-cum soaked through.

A sly smile came across Erestor’s face as he moved and sat beside a still naked Glorfindel on the bed, one arm above the blonds head as he looked down upon the blushing face.

“I’m sorry darling, did I just ruin your orgasm?” He said in a most sultry and amused voice. To which Glorfindel closed his eyes, an embarrassed smile playing upon his lips.

“Did you forget something Erestor?” He asked, not even attempting to regain his dignity, knowing that it was long gone.

Still thoroughly enjoying the sweet revenge of when Glorfindel had walked in upon him he caressed a red cheek before replying.
“Aye, I was hoping I could take the journal with me, for a little light reading if I were to take a break. Having something to look forward to from reading your passages.” He said looking to the journal that sat on a bedside table.

“Of course here…” Glorfindel had started as he reached for the journal but was pulled back by Erestor’s hand.
“Oh let me.” Erestor then reached across Glorfindel, virtually laying across his lap, bent so that Glorfindel had an ample view of his behind as he reached for the journal making the warrior whimper pitifully.

“Got it.” Erestor chuckled as he sat back up.
“This is so embarrassing.” Glorfindel admitted quietly still with a small smile.
“Just consider us even, have fun.” Erestor had said with a grin, suggestively looking down to the blonds lap before giving him one last chaste kiss and finally leaving the room.


Part 2.

“Come.” Erestor had called at the knock from his door. A bashful and almost excited smile surfaced across his face before he managed to contain it to a small grin at seeing the Glorfindel’s head appear from behind the door.
“Glorfindel, what can I do for you?” He tried to ask casually, but was helpless to suppress his pleased smile.

Glorfindel said nothing at first but stepped into the room along with a picnic basket for Erestor to see, a cocky grin upon his lips. “I thought perhaps we could go for ride…” When Erestor looked back to Glorfindel with a raised brow Glorfindel chuckled and continued, “…on my horse…” The warrior laughed again when Erestor turned back to the scroll he carried with an exaggerated pout. “… go for a swim perhaps, and then indulge in a little wine and sweet treats afterwards.”

Glorfindel had walked across the office floor and had set the basket atop of the desk as he moved to stand behind Erestor. Who had been trying valiantly to seem uninterested by the prospect as he continued to study the parchment he held. The blush on his cheeks and smile on his lips giving him away however.

The advisor sighed as he felt the warm body behind him encompass him, dextrous fingers pried the scroll from his grip, as strong arms held him close about his middle, blond hair spilled over his side as the warriors head rested upon his shoulder. He had given up trying to hide his content smile as he felt ever so soft lips brush his cheek.

“Thank you for the gift Erestor, I love it.” Glorfindel had whispered into the pointed ear before twitching his wrist so as his sleeve moved to reveal a fine mithril bracelet around his wrist. Glorfindel had been pleasantly surprised to find the bracelet placed inside of a small box with a note on his desk that morn. They had been courting for a couple of months now, and every few days Glorfindel would dote upon Erestor with some new gift. Whether it be a simple rose, the mithril clasp the advisor wore in his hair or more poetry. So it was that he had been delighted to find the gift that morning and to discover that not only was he courting Erestor, but Erestor was courting him in return.

Save for that one night when Glorfindel had came to Erestor in his office they had not shared a bed, Glorfindel had restrained himself to being the perfect gentleman. Which annoyed Erestor thoroughly. Erestor had strived for more than innocent touches, and had even continuously invited Glorfindel to stay in his rooms for the night. But each time the blond would politely decline leaving Erestor puzzled, and each time this would happen the advisor would find another small gift for him the next day.

It had not been such a burden to begin with, when in Glorfindel’s company the warrior would never hesitate to be affectionate. Always placing his hand at the small of Erestor’s back when walking alone or just simply holding hands, and would always when given opportunity kiss the advisor breathless. Erestor had at first been flattered by the respect Glorfindel showed him, rather than groping him at every opportunity. But now Erestor was growing restless, they had grown to know each other rather then diving into in to a lust filled relationship, which Erestor would admit he was grateful for. But he longed for Glorfindel to touch him, and for him to touch Glorfindel. Now that he felt he knew Glorfindel, he only wished to be closer to him, to deepen their relationship, in every way. For that one night that they stayed together had haunted him. Images of golden skin, firm muscles and a rose tipped member had always tormented him at night when wishing that he was not laying alone in his bed.

“What do you say Erestor, come for ride?” Glorfindel had asked sweetly as he tightened his hold on Erestor, continuing to kiss the soft flushed cheek.

“Is it not a little late for that?” Erestor had asked as he turned in the embrace to face Glorfindel so that he could rest his hands on the broad shoulders.

“Not at all why would you think that?” The blond had asked with such innocence that made Erestor grin adoringly. Unable to resist Erestor tilted his head upwards for a kiss he had been daydreaming about all day before replying.

“It is night Glorfindel.” He tilted his head towards the balcony where it was clearly night time outside, for the advisor was well known for working into the early hours.

“All the better, I love to ride under the stars, and no one will bother us.”
“Sounds good.” Erestor said huskily while tilting his back up for another deep kiss. Erestor inwardly cringed at how forward and wanton he had become and decided to blame it on Glorfindel’s reluctance to share a bed with him. He never used to be so forward, in fact he had always been shy and hesitant, but Glorfindel had brought out another side in him he had not known existed.

When they pulled apart Glorfindel seemed to take a minute to get his voice back before he could speak.
“Shall we go then?”

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This was more than he could take, he sat in front of Glorfindel atop of his steed Asfaloth. They had set off at a steady rhythm, the horses steady momentum had Glorfindel moving in a similar rhythm behind him, he thought he would surely go mad. Just as he thought he could honestly take no more they arrived at the river side and the warrior dismounted behind him.

Glorfindel had spread out the contents of the basket and they had sat a while with glasses of wine in hand and sweet fruits spread on one dish. They had been enjoying each others company as they always did with the usual sexual tension between them. Every so often Erestor move closer to Glorfindel and would shamefully touch him at any opportunity. On the arm, the cheek, he had even ran his hand down the blonds chest while laughing at something amusing he had said. Eventually they were so close that Erestor was simply watching the warriors lips move as he spoke, when the warrior had finished speaking Erestor did not give Glorfindel a moment to ask about his lack of attention as he pushed his lips against the blonds in a desperate kiss.

Glorfindel had been taken by surprise but soon melted into the kiss, his heart skipped a beat as Erestor seated himself in the blonds lap and began to tug at the clasps of his tunic.

“Eres…” Glorfindel began but was interrupted as Erestor again claimed his lips. After a small struggle the warrior finally managed to push Erestor back gently by the shoulders parting their lips. Seeing Erestor with his lips pouted and slick, breathing heavily, practically begging for more was so tempting, but the look of annoyance was absolutely adorable.

“T-the night has just begun Erestor, why don’t we go for a dip in the river?” For he definitely needed cooling off.

“The river?” Erestor asked utterly annoyed that Glorfindel had pushed him away, but after a moment to think on it Erestor agreed, for swimming meant to rid themselves of their clothes. “Yes, that sounds ideal.” Without another word Erestor stood and slowly and seductively as possible began to strip off his clothes. Again with his own mind screaming at him that he was being to forward and all together unlike himself.

When naked he walked over to Glorfindel and pulled him to stand, before beginning to undress him. As he began to slide the warriors shirt down muscular biceps he could not resist and nuzzled into Glorfindel’s neck, spreading sweet kisses along the heated flesh as he did so. He knew Glorfindel was aroused, he could feel the blonds impressive length pressing through his leggings and against his own hardness. When he reached the waistband of the leggings Glorfindel pushed away the advisor hands.

“I-I’ll get that.”
“No I insist, let me.” Erestor left no room for argument as he then pulled down the breeches. As he pulled them down the muscular legs he knelt down to assist with the warriors boots and helped him to step out of the leggings. When they were again standing facing each other, Erestor let his hands wander along the warriors sides and up and down his chest until finally he was brushing against the hard length between the strong thighs. As soon as his fingers reached their goal though Glorfindel quickly removed the hand and acting as if nothing had happened began to pull Erestor towards the water.

“Come, why don’t we get in, it’s a lovely night for swimming.” Glorfindel had then started to wade into the water leaving Erestor slack jawed.

Determined not to let Glorfindel get away from him, he followed the blond into the water until it reached just below their chests. He watched as Glorfindel dipped his head beneath the water to wet his hair and did likewise, but made sure that he made a show of it as he did so by raising his arms up to run his fingers through his damp locks while sighing.

“T-the water is cooler then I thought.” Glorfindel babbled, moving back as Erestor moved forward until the warriors back had bumped against a sturdy rock ledge behind him.
“Then let me warm you?” Erestor was aware of how Glorfindel looked like a trapped animal but advanced on him anyway.

After smiling sweetly at him Glorfindel seemed to relax and desist in his retreat, allowing Erestor close. Slowly as to not scare off this new almost shy Glorfindel Erestor wrapped his arms around the blonds neck, pulling himself closer. The advisor sighed happily when feeling Glorfindel hold him close, large but surprisingly soft hands stroking up and down his back as Erestor playfully rubbed his nose against Glorfindel’s, making the warrior chuckle quietly.

“This is nice.” Erestor murmured as he closed his eyes feeling one of the hands gliding along his back gently brush away damp locks from his face. It was dark outside bust enough light shone from the stars for the lovers to see each other.

“Reminds me of that night we slept in each others arms.” The blond murmured.
“You know you are more than welcome into my bed Glorfindel, and I would not say no if you were to invite me back into yours.”

Throwing caution to the wind he pulled Glorfindel into a possesive kiss, with the water making him weightless he easily wrapped his legs around the blonds waist. Erestor grew worried when Glorfindel didn’t seem to be responding, but his doubts were proved flawed as Glorfindel took command. As if a damn had broke Glorfindel whirled Erestor around until it was his back that slammed against the stone. Erestor moaned when suddenly Glorfindel’s hands were upon him, the feel of their wet naked flesh touching was exquisite. His mouth was invaded as he felt the warriors hands stroke up and down his sides. He could not help the whimper that fell from his lips when Glorfindel pulled Erestor by the thighs to cling tighter around his waist before rubbing and squeezing the advisors pert behind. Unfortunately, the small sound seemed to break the spell Glorfindel was under as the warrior pulled back panting hard and trying to disengage Erestor from his body.

“Wait! wait no no no….” Erestor tried to wrap his legs back around the blonds waist even as he tried to reclaim the soft lips but was denied as Glorfindel again tried to gently push him away.

“What?! What is it? Why don’t you want to touch me?!” Erestor suddenly burst as he was finally pushed away, hating the angry tone in his voice.

“Erestor I..” But Erestor interrupted him.
“You write about such passionate things you wished to do with me, yet anytime you get close to me you push me away. Why? I thought you wanted me.”

Glorfindel’s heart melted at the hurt expression on Erestor’s face and he reached forward to softly touch a damp cheek but flinched as Erestor moved away from the loving touch.

“Erestor no, I mean yes I do want you, it’s just…I…what I mean is…”
“What?” Erestor asked impatiently.
“I want more! I need more than that!”

There was a long silence between the two by the deserted bank, and to Glorfindel’s shock Erestor looked as if he had just been slapped across the face. It was with his chin trembling and weak broken voice that Erestor next whispered.

“Well I am sorry that I do not live up to your standards, lord Glorfindel.”

Even though they were both completely soaked Glorfindel could make out the tears from the water droplets that fell unbidden down pale cheeks before Erestor began to swim away to the bank. Glorfindel immediately swam after Erestor calling to him but the advisor ignored his calls and began to dress. Glorfindel left the water and tried to get Erestor to stand still for a moment but the advisor would have none of it.

“Wait Erestor that’s not what I meant! Not at all, please Erestor…”
“Will you please get dressed, though I do not wish to be in your company I have no other way of getting home.” Erestor then turned away and stood by Asfaloth, gently patting his mane with his back to Glorfindel. Glorfindel felt his own eyes sting when he would hear a repressed sob or sniff, he swallowed hard when he saw Erestor’s shoulders begin to shake. Once dressed he moved to stand behind Erestor, grasping the shoulders gently.

“Erestor please I’m sorry I didn’t…” But Erestor shook off the gentle hands and mounted the steed, turning his head away from Glorfindel, unwilling to let the warrior see the tears streaming his cheeks. Not knowing what else to do Glorfindel mounted Asfaloth behind Erestor and set off for home, the entire ride home was spent in stony silence, save for the occasional sniff heard from Erestor. When finally they entered the empty stables in Imladris Glorfindel dismounted and held his hand out for Erestor only for it to be ignored as Erestor gracefully descended from the steed. Erestor made to leave the stables but was stopped by the firm grip on his upper arm.

“Erestor please you misunderstood!”
“Did I Glorfindel? I know why it is you will not touch me…do not want me!”
“Erestor I told you I do want you!” Glorfindel cried desperately while trying to draw Erestor into his arms only to be pushed away. His hands shook as he began to feel as if he was loosing the dearest person to him before his very eyes, and that there was nothing he could do to stop it.

“It’s because I do not live up to the fantasy, the, the dream lover you wrote about in your journal! I am not as precious or beautiful you once thought me from a distance!”
“Erestor no!”
“Do not try to deny it! You…you make me feel this way about you…then you grow tired of me, and realise I’m not who it is you want!”
“Erestor I..”
“Well I am ending this now.”

Utter pain and the look of horror passed over Glorfindel’s features, and when the warrior spoke it was in a pleading voice that was broken as he tried to hold his tears at bay.

“Oh Erestor no please! Don’t I…I will do anything please…” Glorfindel sounded almost pathetic as he begged with tears shimmering in his large pleading blue eyes. Desperately he tried bringing Erestor into his arms, even as Erestor tried to pull himself free. As tears began to spill from his eyes the blond pulled Erestor’s lips against his own only to be pushed away almost violently.

“Stop! Do not play with me, you said yourself you want more. I am obviously not enough for you, I think it less painful to end it now rather than later.” But as if to contradict his words his voice broke and tears again cascaded down his cheeks.

To Glorfindel’s horror Erestor reached behind his head and took the clasp from his hair, letting his dark damp locks fall around his face. “Take it back Glorfindel.” Erestor seemed to hesitate before thrusting it forward towards the broken warrior.

“No! no it’s a gift from me to you! You like it! You said you liked it! Please Erestor put it back in your hair, don’t do this!”

Erestor then forcefully shoved the clip into the blonds hand, making Glorfindel cry out. He then reached for Erestor and tried to tied the clasp back into the dark hair while crying openly, but Erestor moved away.

“Goodbye lord Glorfindel.” And he then left the stables, and a broken hearted elf behind.

Glorfindel watched the open doors where Erestor had left for some time before looking away and down at the clasp he held in his hand. ‘I knew this wouldn’t last’ he thought sadly. Needing some sort of comfort Glorfindel leaned his head against Asfaloth’s neck and cried gently. His steed seemed to sense his masters misery and neighed turning his head to try and see his rider. Glorfindel merely wrapped his arms around the stallions neck and continued to weep. He had been so happy and in love this morning.

Erestor managed to hold onto his dignity until he had reached his rooms, once the doors were shut behind him he had climbed upon his bed and wept into the night, until an uneasy sleep claimed him.


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Glorfindel wiped his eyes, he had been standing clinging to his horse for some time now. The poor creature was clearly confused and shifted nervously, turning to try and face his master. When Glorfindel finally released the broad neck the steed turned to nuzzled into the blonds chest neighing quietly. Glorfindel smiled faintly as he patted the horses nose, he was pretty sure it was unnatural to love a horse as much as he did Asfaloth. He lifted his hand to again look at the returned gift, managing to hold the fresh tears at bay he straightened his back and shoulders.

“I will not loose him, I can not.” He spoke to Asfaloth, he had long ago ceased to feel embarrassed about talking to his horse, for he was certain Asfaloth could understand him. Now being a prime example as the steed snorted and pushed the warrior towards the stable doors with the end of his nose. Glorfindel smiled sadly and patted the horses nose after pocketing the hair clasp and dashing off to the house.

He walked along the halls quietly due to the late hour, knowing that all would be retired and resting. When he came to Erestor’s door he stood momentarily as he considered knocking but thought better not to. So as quietly as possible Glorfindel slowly opened the door, making sure that it did not creak as he closed it behind him. He spied Erestor on the bed and walked over to the still form.

Erestor had fallen asleep atop of the bed covers, still fully clothed and curled in a ball on the edge of the bed as he clutched at a pillow. Quietly Glorfindel crouched beside the side of the bed and looked upon Erestor’s tear stained face. He could tell by the strained expression upon the advisors fair face that it was not a peaceful sleep Erestor was in.

“Erestor?” Glorfindel brushed a soft cheek as he tried to bring the councillor out of slumber gently. “Erestor please wake.” This time he pressed a loving kiss to the advisors cheek.

Erestor’s eyelashes flittered before awareness spilled into the Large Sorrowful brown eyes. “Glorfindel? What are you…” He was cut off as Glorfindel placed his hand over the advisors mouth. Ignoring the furrowed brow of annoyance Glorfindel finally lifted his hand when he was sure he would have a chance to speak.

“Damn you Erestor, you will listen to me.”
“Glor..”
“Hush!” Glorfindel had said, again covering Erestor’s mouth with his hand. When the advisor seemed to settle down some Glorfindel again spoke, but did not remove his hand from Erestor’s mouth.
“What I said earlier…” Glorfindel began but paused when hurt seemed to lace over Erestor’s features, he removed his hand and cupped Erestor’s face, waiting for eye contact before continuing. “What I said earlier, was true…”

Erestor freed his face from Glorfindel’s gentle grip and sat up, making to leave the bed but was stopped by Glorfindel. The warrior took both of the advisors hands in his pulling Erestor to face him. Erestor was now sitting on the edge of the bed with Glorfindel crouched between his legs. The warrior held Erestor firmly in his place, holding him firmly by the chin.

“I do want more, but not as you think. Erestor I want you, in every way I truly do. But before we make love in which my heart and body yearn for, I want you to love me first.”
“What?” Erestor asked quietly, no longer pulling away from Glorfindel’s hold.
“I want…I want you to be in love with me, as I am you, before we share our bodies.” The warrior could see Erestor wished to speak then but continued before he could be interrupted. “Erestor if we laid together now, while you are still unsure of your feelings for me, only to later discover that you do not share my love then…then, well… that would kill me. To have known you in such an intimate way and then to not have you return my feelings, or worse to see you with someone else…” Glorfindel’s voice was now barely audible as tears shone in his eyes and his chin trembled. “If I had to see you in someone else’s arms, I…I couldn’t bare it Erestor I just couldn’t!” Glorfindel let his tears fall now, clutching tightly onto the shocked advisors waist and pressing his head against his chest.

“Oh Glorfindel…”
“That’s why I would pull away Erestor, because I thought you if were to fall in love with me first then I wouldn’t have to worry. Do you understand Erestor? I do want you! And you are more than I could ever wish for, so much more, I love you Erestor.” The blond finished in a whisper, his shoulders shaking as he continued to hold onto Erestor.

“Glorfindel, I, I don’t know what to say I…”
“You don’t have to say anything, honestly. But please do not end this, I have never been so happy as when I am with you.” Glorfindel smiled hopefully and tightened his hold on Erestor when the advisor wrapped his arms around his shoulders.

“Tell me you are not ending this Erestor.”

Erestor tilted up the warriors head and gasped seeing such sorrow in the blue shimmering eyes, “Oh Glorfindel, I’m sorry, I never, please don’t cry...” Erestor drew Glorfindel up so that they were face to face and began to cover the blonds face with kisses, “I do not want to end this, I don’t. Come to bed Glorfindel, lay with me.” Erestor pulled Glorfindel up and on to the bed. As he began to push Glorfindel to lay down the warrior sat back up and drew something out of his pocket.

“Please, put it back in?” Glorfindel had calmed and now held the hair clasp on the palm of his hand.

Smiling Erestor turned with his back to Glorfindel. “Do it for me?”

When the clasp was firmly in place he turned again to face Glorfindel, there was silence between them where for the moment they were content to just look at one another. Finally Erestor pulled Glorfindel close and kissed him lovingly.

“Come, get out of these clothes and in to bed, you need to rest.” Erestor then reached forward and helped Glorfindel out of his clothes and then removed his own. When both were beneath the covers Erestor pulled Glorfindel close and held him tight.

“I just wanted you to know..” Erestor began with a trace of a smile on his lips, “that I am not usually so forward, nor am I usually one who would throw themselves at another so shamelessly. You just, you are so wonderful..” Erestor could feel his cheeks redden as he continued while rubbing the blonds back soothingly “not to mention beautiful, do you understand?” He was relieved when he felt Glorfindel’s shoulders shake slightly, but from chuckles not tears.

“And you must understand that I am not usually one to completely break down, cry and beg. Right?”

“I will not tell anyone if you don’t.”
“Then it is agreed upon, perhaps we could seal the deal with a kiss?” Glorfindel had asked hopefully.
“I am most agreeable.” This kiss they shared was tender and gentle. When they pulled apart Erestor bit his lip as he tried to say what it was that he felt needed saying. “Glorfindel, I, surely you must know…”
“Sshh, Erestor. It can wait, not until you’re ready.” Glorfindel pulled Erestor closer to his own body beneath the warm blankets, wanting absolutely nothing to spoil the moment. “We’re going to be alright aren’t we Erestor?” The blond whispered, unable to shift all insecurities after coming so close to losing his love.

“As long as you don’t let me go, aye.” Erestor snuggled closer as he rested his head atop of Glorfindel’s head. “We will be alright Glorfindel, we have to be.” Both elves feeling for the moment secure in each others arms managed to slip into reverie.

It had been Erestor to wake first, the work that he had left last night needed to be completed first thing that morning. So silently Erestor had pried himself from Glorfindel’s grip and readied himself for the day. Not wanting Glorfindel to wake up to an empty room, but also knowing that the warrior did not have morning patrol that day left Erestor feeling conflicted as whether or not to wake the sleeping blond. Finally he decided it best to wake him, especially after last night, it would not do to have Glorfindel to wake alone in the bed.

“Glorfindel, wake sweetheart.” Erestor had crouched down beside the bed so that he faced the vacant blue eyes. When Glorfindel awoke his brow furrowed in question as to why Erestor was out of the bed and dressed.

“I have work I need to start Glorfindel, I’m sorry I woke you but I did not want you to wake and find me gone. Meet me at mid day in the gardens?”
Glorfindel simply nodded his head with a loving smile, still to sleepy to answer.

“Good, why don’t you go back to sleep, stay here as long as you want, and I will see you at midday.” With one more soft kiss Erestor rose and left the room. Glorfindel watched Erestor leave the room, a small smile upon his lips at seeing the mithril hair clasp braided into the dark hair.


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Erestor had spent most of the morning thinking about the elf that he had left sleeping in his bed. He had never seen Glorfindel so emotional before. He had known Glorfindel for many years, but the only thing they had had in common was that they both called Imladris their home. In passing they would address each other out of politeness, but they had never really had what Erestor would call a relationship of any sort. Now he had seen Glorfindel in a new light, Glorfindel was in fact sweet and sensitive. The blond made him nervous and excited at the same time, Glorfindel loved him.

Erestor smiled as he thought about Glorfindel, there was no doubt in his own mind as to whether he loved Glorfindel or not. He had just never known or begun to suspect that the warrior had been waiting for a declaration of love. A declaration that he would give willingly and truthfully, but he now felt that if he was to tell Glorfindel now, that he would think he was being untrue. He knew Glorfindel would think that he was only saying the words out of guilt or of want to lay together.

Sighing Erestor ran his fingers through his hair out of habit, but hissed when his hair snagged on the hair clasp he had forgotten he had been wearing. He pulled it out gently to look upon, and felt tears prick his eyes at remembering how upset Glorfindel had become when he had tried to return it. He fastened the clip back in his hair with pride, he loved Glorfindel, and he desperately wanted to become intimate with him. It was just a matter of convincing Glorfindel that his words were genuine. Looking out of the window and seeing that it was not quite midday but knowing he would not get anymore work done that morn, he decided to head down to the gardens early. Perhaps the fresh air would help clear his mind and find a solution to his problem.

Erestor walked slowly to the gardens after a quick visit to the kitchens to gather some refreshments for both himself and Glorfindel. He was walking amongst the cover of the forestry towards the gardens when hearing a familiar voice coming from the training grounds. Taking a small detour but deciding to stay obscured from view Erestor watched the two elves sparring. One he did not recognise and the other making his heart race. Glorfindel looked stunning, he wore only leggings. His heaving golden chest and defined muscles shone in a gleam of sweat. The two elves had seemed to stop their sparring and simply stood talking. Feeling utterly ashamed of himself Erestor moved closer and strained his ears to listen.

“I know what it is that has you so distracted.” The anonymous elf started with a knowing smirk.
“And pray tell what would that be?” Glorfindel had responded only half listening as he took up a cloth and began to wipe at his sword.
“You have finally taken a new lover haven’t you?”

Glorfindel did not reply but seemed to smile shyly and turn his back to his sparing partner and friend. Unknowingly making the dark elf who watched them smile affectionately.
“I knew it! It is about time my friend. You know it was only a few decades ago I would of considered you promiscuous, but then suddenly you seemed to loose interest in absolutely anyone who would approach you. I do not know how it is this person has managed to ensnare you when so many others have failed but I am happy for you Glorfindel.”

Seeing no reason to hide the fact that he had a lover or would be lover as it was, Glorfindel merely nodded his head in thanks and turned back to cleaning his sword.

“Do I not get to know who it is who apparently has something no one else does?”
“I ah, I don’t think so.”
“And why not? I demand you tell me who it is so that I may go shake their hand!”
Glorfindel laughed but did not relent, “I would gladly tell you or anyone else of his identity but I am not sure if he would appreciate it. We have been together for some months now and as far as I know, no one knows of our relationship.” The blond had said with a note of sadness in his voice.

Erestor’s smile faded some, he was right, no one did know of them. And this apparently was something that was important to Glorfindel. As Erestor thought more upon it he felt no need to hide his relationship with Glorfindel from anyone, he never had. He inwardly cursed himself that he had again missed something that was troubling Glorfindel, well at least this he could rectify.

“Glorfindel, I do not want to speak out of place for you are obviously most taken by him but, if he wishes to hide your relationship then I think that he is not worthy of you my friend.”
“Nay its…it’s not like that…”

Deciding that this was a good time to make his presence known Erestor walked towards the area where the two elves stood. It was the other elf who saw him first and signalled to Glorfindel that he approached. Glorfindel seemed to blush realising that he had come close to being overheard by the one he was speaking of.

“Lord councillor, is something amiss, is there something we can do for you?” The other elf asked formally.
“Nay, I am simply here to see Glorfindel.”

The other elf raised his brow and turned to Glorfindel before walking over a few paces to collect his drinking flask, supposedly giving them privacy but still within listening range.

“Erestor, is something wrong? Its not yet midday.” Glorfindel felt compelled to gather Erestor in his arms and kiss him in greeting as any lover would, but did not know if Erestor would approve. Erestor sensed this and stepped closer.

“Nay, I just couldn’t wait to see you so I took an early lunch…” Erestor grinned at the almost ecstatic smile that spread across Glorfindel’s face. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to interrupt if you were busy, I will be in the gardens when you are finished.”

To Glorfindel’s surprise Erestor then tilted his head up for a loving and slow kiss. They pulled apart however when they could hear the sound of choking coming from the other elf. Erestor snorted with restrained laughter seeing the other elf coughing and spluttering with his drinking flask still in hand, blushing and looking apologetic at the couple amongst his choking. Glorfindel laughed whilst placing a hand possessively on Erestor’s hip, something he had never felt able to do before in company. Turning back to Erestor he smiled adoringly, knowing exactly why Erestor had kissed him. Eagerly he received another sweet kiss before the advisor stepped away.

“I will be in the gardens then.” Giving Glorfindel one last longing look he turned to the other elf who finally had his choking under control, and nodded politely as if nothing had happened before turning and leaving.

When Erestor was out of earshot the elf turned to Glorfindel with a smile upon his face and a brow raised.
“Apparently I was wrong.” Glorfindel shrugged cockily.
“Apparently so!”


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When Glorfindel came into the clearing Erestor had already set out the food upon the floor in two small dishes, and was sitting hugging his knees waiting for the warrior. When Glorfindel came into view Erestor smiled brightly and moved to stand but stopped when Glorfindel sat himself next to him.

“You over heard us didn’t you?”
Erestor grinned at being caught and lowered his head in mock shame before looking back up into amused blue eyes. “Aye I did, but it was not my intention. I had spotted you on my way here and could not resist ogling at your beauty, forgive me.”
“Ogling my beauty?” Glorfindel asked while giggling.

Erestor looked at Glorfindel blankly for a moment before moving closer to run his finger along the blonds jaw as he spoke. “You really have no idea what it is you do to me do you?” Glorfindel had walked into the clearing with the front of his tunic open, his chest still glistened slightly with remaining residue of sweat. Erestor rested his brow against Glorfindel’s as he let a single digit slide down the firm chest and flat stomach, before returning its attention back up to the blonds jaw. “Aye Glorfindel, beauty. There is no other more fair than you.”

Erestor grinned at the blush that graced Glorfindel’s cheeks and pulled back slightly and crossed his legs.
“Glorfindel, this is something else that was bothering you that I did not notice. If ever you feel unhappy about something I have done or unknowingly neglected to notice please tell me. We are a couple, and I will not have my lover feeling that way, alright?” Erestor had said in a most gentle tone, smiling when Glorfindel simply nodded his head.

“Come, lay down.” Erestor patted his lap and waited for Glorfindel to lay on his back with his head in the advisors lap. “I have brought a favourite of yours…” Erestor grinned cheekily and pulled out what seemed a large bundled handkerchief from his pocket and opened to hold out a strawberry to Glorfindel’s lips.

“Strawberries!” Glorfindel had laughed. He chuckled as Erestor then conceded to feed him strawberries, delivering a small kiss after each piece of fruit was pushed between his lips.

“Tell me about your morning, what time did you manage to drag yourself out of my bed?”

Feeling what could only be described as blissful Glorfindel smiled up at his love and began to tell him of his not very eventful morning with much enthusiasm.


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They had walked back towards the house hand in hand before going their separate ways, upon walking to his office Erestor was determined that tonight, Glorfindel would know of his love for him. Glorfindel had mentioned that after a brief stop at the barracks he would be going back to his chambers to change and bathe. So before heading straight to his office Erestor stopped at his own chambers to pick something up and deposit in Glorfindel’s rooms for the blond to find.

Over the past few months that they had been a couple Erestor, inspired by Glorfindel had kept a journal of his own. He flicked through the pages as he stood now in the warriors rooms, there were hundreds of pages written in his fine hand. And at least once every few pages it would say how he thought he was loosing himself to the warrior. And within the fist dozen pages the writing told of how Glorfindel made him feel, what he loved about him. And finally how he knew himself in love, and fearing the very fact. Erestor left the small book on the large bed with a simple note that said ‘read me’. Taking a deep breath Erestor left the rooms for his office, knowing that in a few hours, Glorfindel would know all.


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He had spied the book upon first entering his rooms, he smiled reading the note recognising that it was Erestor’s hand. After flipping open the book he laughed aloud in surprise, it was a journal, much like the one he had kept about Erestor.

He had not meant to stay so long, but once he had begun to read the pages he could not stop. It was late evening now, and he had not moved from his seated spot on the end of his bed. He had laughed adoringly and had even wiped away tears at what Erestor had written. He read of how Erestor feared of loving Glorfindel, only to loose him to another. Even after all the sweet words of love that Glorfindel had bestowed the advisor, Erestor had still feared loosing him. The journal then went on into detail describing Erestor’s longing to be touched by him. Glorfindel had even felt a familiar heat rise within him from reading one particular passage that was a little more explicit than the others, and even rivalled his own.

‘I do not know why but he refuses to be intimate with me. I have shamelessly invited him back to my rooms for the night time and time again, only to left feeling embarrassed as he politely declines. I find myself thoroughly confused, he bestows numerous compliments to me to which each one I blush uncontrollably. But he does not wish to touch me intimately, so I find myself being more forward than usual. Each time he declines my bed and leaves me for the night I long for him. I wish to be held by him, for him to make love to me. So I content myself with fantasies as I pleasure myself, seeing him in my minds eyes, always him, only him. I imagine myself taking his throbbing cock into the back of my throat. I imagine sucking so hard, hearing him moan and feeling him pump into my mouth. Until finally he spills himself with my name upon his lips, as I swallow every last drop of his come down my throat. Oh I want him to touch me, I know he loves me, but I wish for him to love my body also, so desperately…”

Glorfindel found himself unbearably aroused, his own words had not even had this effect on him. He continued to read until it was dark outside and he was reading the last page. He did not notice as another sliped into the room quietly, he sighed reading the last sentence.

‘I love him, Valar help me I love him.’

“And I always will, I swear to you.”
“Erestor!” Glorfindel jumped hearing Erestor speak, he had not heard him enter the room and was about to stand but Erestor moved to sit beside him.

“They are dated Glorfindel, each page is dated. I do love you, and I have loved you for some time. I wanted to tell you last night but I feared you would not believe me. I thought you would think I was simply saying it so you would not be upset. And I am sorry I did not tell you earlier but…I was afraid…”

“I know, I read…” Came the almost dazed reply.

Erestor took Glorfindel’s hands in his own before looking to him pleadingly. “I love you, you believe me yes? Because it is true, I love you”

Glorfindel did not answer but shocked Erestor as he lunged forward and captured the advisors lips in desperate kiss. Erestor was stunned briefly and pulled back momentarily with a grin on his face.

“I should take that as a yes then?”

Glorfindel smirked handsomely before pushing Erestor back on the bed. Erestor licked his lips excitedly whilst pulling himself up along the bed until he rested amongst the pillows. Both wearing equally inane excited grins they began to tug at each others clothes. When Glorfindel had managed to open the front of Erestor’s robes he forcefully pulled it off of the lithe form.

Erestor panted in excitement, so many months of long kisses and innocent touches had lead to love, and ultimately this moment where they would complete their coupling. Glorfindel seemed to of shed all shyness, straddling Erestor’s waist as he ripped off his own tunic over his head. Staring down at the advisors pale smooth chest with a look of utter passion. Glorfindel wasted no time in tugging off his own leggings before re-straddling Erestor’s thighs to pull at the advisors leggings. So caught up in the moment was he that he didn’t see the Erestor bite his lip in what appeared slight worry.

Erestor found himself confused at his own trepidation, all this time Erestor had been pushing Glorfindel to be more intimate. And now that he had what he wanted he found himself nervous. He was still terribly excited but could feel an apprehensive flutter within himself as Glorfindel practically tore off his leggings.

Erestor was naked, he had seen him naked before but had always restricted himself to looking, not touching. Smooth pale thighs that felt so very soft, almost alike to the soft skin of a babe. A prominent arousal proud and erect. A flat stomach, with the most adorable belly button he had ever seen. Again a smooth chest with…oh and he thought the belly button was adorable. Glorfindel had in the past lain with both male and females, none of them even began to compare to what was laid out before him now. The two pinkish nipples that seemed humble in their perfection stood to attention, begging to be teased. Dipping his head he pulled a nipple between his lips and suckled gently, moaning as he did so.

Hearing a gasp Glorfindel looked up with a smirk and watched as Erestor opened his eyes to look directly down at him. He was a little surprised to see what seemed hesitancy, but as Erestor smiled encouragingly at him he realised that the advisor was nervous. His eyes sparkled with love and slight mirth. Throughout their relationship so far Erestor had been the more forward of the two and him the reluctant party, both for their own reasons. But now that that they hid nothing from each other it would seem their true characters had come forth. And he decided he loved the small glimmer of nervousness Erestor was trying to hide.

“Glorfindel?” Erestor touched the blonds cheek after Glorfindel seemed to still his movements to look down on him with what seemed amused thoughtfulness.

Glorfindel knew that Erestor wanted this, almost as much as he did. But he found himself touched by the dark elf’s apparent coyness. Something that reminded him of the night Erestor had come to his chambers for the first time and shyly looked about the room. There would be plenty of time for mad frenzied couplings. This was their first time, and they would make love, slowly yet passionately.

Another soft touch to his cheek brought him back from his thoughts. Smiling reassuringly at the one beneath him Glorfindel kissed him lovingly before speaking in a husky tone.

“Lets get beneath the covers hmm?”
They climbed beneath the covers, Erestor made space and watched as the warrior laid down between his thighs and pulled the covers up to their waists.
Erestor sighed happily as he was drawn into a slow but thorough kiss, a content smile played upon his lips as the soft lips moved to his jaw line and neck.

“That feels good.” He whispered with his eyes closed as he stretched his neck affording Glorfindel more of the soft skin of his neck.
“it will feel more so my love.”
“Y-you know I think I am glad we waited..” Erestor took a moment to swallow as teeth grazed across his collarbone before continuing, “because you love me, and I love you. And this feels so right, you will never hurt me, you will love me forever wont you?” Its not a question asked out of insecurity, but of realisation.
“For the rest of my existence Erestor, I promise you.” Was mumbled against a pert and moist nipple.

Again the body bucked beneath him as he drew the other nipple into his mouth and nipped playfully. Slowly he kissed his way down the centre of the flat stomach and again was faced with this most perfect belly button.

“I love this belly button.”
“Belly button?” Erestor giggled.
“Aye it is most superior.”
“I have only ever heard elfling’s refer to a navel as a belly button.”
“Ah but you see it is on your belly, and is cute as a button.”

Erestor had to giggle at the warriors logic, and he continued to giggle with his stomach quivering as Glorfindel let his fingers ghost over his sides as a tongue dipped into his ‘belly button’.

“Oh Valar are you ticklish too? Will you’re cuteness ever cease?” Glorfindel asked chuckling.
“I’ll have you know I’m quite rugged, cute indeed.” Erestor had replied indignantly but with a grin. Glorfindel could only laugh in reply as he continued his explorations down to the sensitive line between groin and thigh.

“Ai Glorfindel please…” Erestor answered breathlessly.

Glorfindel grinned as he deliberately ignored the quiet plea to kiss along the insides of baby soft skin of the creamy thighs. Finally humouring his lover he daintily licked at the heavy sacks between the thighs. Erestor whimpered above him as he watched Glorfindel’s head slowly disappear between his thighs. He cried out though when he felt a wet tongue lick at his cleft, or as much as the tongue could access. Glorfindel looked up feeling a tapping on his shoulder, his breath caught at the sight of Erestor. His eyes had darkened further with passion, his normally pale complexion was flushed and his chest heaved.

“Oil Glorfindel, your oil, where is it?” He pleaded with little breath.
Glorfindel did not answer but crawled up the length of Erestor’s body to reach to the bedside draw and blindly pull out a small vile, all the while never breaking eye contact with Erestor. With the vile uncorked and in hand he quickly coated his fingers before finally and carefully sliding a digit into the tight warm heat. Glorfindel grew breathless watching Erestor bite his lip and groan as the he began to steadily clench and unclench around the digit, slowly moving and gyrating onto the finger. After adding a second and third finger, stretching Erestor until the dark elf was gasping and moaning he withdrew.

Leaning up he pored more oil into his palm to rub along his length but was stopped as Erestor leaned up and took his palm in hand.

“Let me.” He whispered shakily. Taking Glorfindel’s palm in his own Erestor coated his own hand and slowly rubbed it along the blonds member. Erestor panted as the cock in his hand felt thick and heavy, pulsating in his grip.

Glorfindel closed his eyes and let his mouth fall in to an open ’O’ shape as Erestor stroked his shaft. He opened his eyes when the warm touch left his length and looked down to Erestor who was laying back and spreading his legs. Breathing deeply and again smiling almost shyly.

Glorfindel leaned over Erestor, positioning himself between the thighs that raised themselves about his waist. He confused Erestor though when he paused and seem to look about the bed.

“Sit up for me a moment.” The blond asked.
Confused but complying Erestor leaned up and watched, a smile spreading across his face as Glorfindel gathered the pillows and arranged them beneath Erestor’s back and head. Evidently so that the advisor would comfortable, and so that they could look each other in the eye as they made love.

“Alright, lay back down.”

Laying back down Erestor sighed in comfort and the utter sweetness Glorfindel was treating him with. He accommodated Glorfindel as the warrior settled himself between his thighs and smiled nervously up as he felt a warm hard heat nudge against his entrance.

Glorfindel rested his hands beneath Erestor’s shoulder blades and sighed feeling knees raise either side of him, making room for him. With his nose slightly brushing against Erestor’s own he waited for the small nod and sweet smile he was given before pushing forward.

He pushed forward steadily until he was completely sheathed. Only then did he open his eyes to look into Erestor’s astonished brown depths.

“You are in me Glorfindel, you’re in me.” The advisor said as if he could not quite believe that they were finally connected physically.

Glorfindel smiled and even laughed gently, he kissed Erestor before slowly pulling out to sink back in. It was then that Glorfindel discovered that there was nothing that felt more divine than being inside of Erestor. And that there was nothing more beautiful than seeing Erestor writhe beneath him. And that there was most definitely no sweeter sound that Erestor whimpering and panting his name.

He rested his brow against Erestor’s as he set a steady rhythm of thrusting into the tight heat, every so often brushing his lips against Erestor’s. He could feel Erestor move along with his thrusts, clenching and unclenching around his shaft. Smooth hands roamed across his broad sweat covered shoulders as legs locked around his waist.

“Glor…” Erestor breathed out.
“Ai Erestor…you feel...feel so good. Ah!” Glorfindel panted and grunted with each forward thrust. Their rhythm becoming faster and more heated.

“Yes…yes…yes” Erestor breathed and cried as pushed down on the vibrating heat that impaled him. Twining his hands in a golden head of hair as he did so.

“Oh Erestor, ugh, ah, yes! Mmm, gods you fell good…Ai!”

“More Glor…more please oh yes, more.” As soon as Erestor whimpered this Glorfindel began to thrust harder and quicker, drawing more cries from the advisor, louder cries.

“Ai Glorfindel! Oh gods…help me…help me, ah yes!”

Glorfindel lifted himself then as he thrust faster. He looked down to where their bodies joined with his mouth hanging open silently. His hips moved in quick hard thrusts as he looked down upon Erestor who was crying out uncontrollably. He looked down predatorily into near black eyes as Erestor reached forward for Glorfindel, and ran his hands along the blonds chest as he was thrust into with wild abandon by the one person he loved more than anything or anyone else.

“Glor…I, I’m going to come, I can’t…” Erestor reached for Glorfindel who allowed the advisor to pull him down to hold onto desperately.
“Then come for me my love.” He rasped hoarsely.

Glorfindel let his stomach lay flat on Erestor’s, both slick and streaming with moisture. He let one hand return to beneath Erestor’s shoulder to anchor the advisor down as the other clutched tightly at a thigh. He then thrust as his body screamed for him to, hard and fast.

Erestor now only cried out incomprehensible odd words, the ability of speech failing him. Although the one word that could be discerned out of the gibberish was the blonds name, being whimpered over and over again. Finally Erestor arched beneath the warrior and screamed his name as his seed splashed hotly between them. Glorfindel thrust once, twice more before coming hard inside of Erestor, crying out the dark elf’s name hoarsely. Even as he spent himself he continued to thrust, until finally his member softened and slipped from his lovers body.

He collapsed atop of Erestor, completely sated and drained of energy. He let his head rest upon a sweat slicked chest and enjoyed the rapid rise and fall, a racing heartbeat drumming in his ear, gradually slowing. When finally they had caught their breaths, Glorfindel raised himself off of Erestor briefly to wipe away the evidence of their joining with the corner of the bed sheet. When the flat stomach was again clean Glorfindel lowered himself back down to rest his head just beneath Erestor’s chin, smiling as still quivering arms held him close. He tilted his head upwards when two fingers raised his chin, he smiled into a sweet kiss and pulled the bed sheets around them closer as Erestor held him tight, wrapping his legs around the warrior.

“Was it everything you thought it would be, you know, everything you wrote about?” Erestor whispered as he stroked damp blond hair.
“Oh Erestor, there is no comparing the two. You…I never knew it could be like that, it was so perfect, you are so perfect.” He said as he lazily kissed the chest he lay upon, wrapping his arms tightly around the advisor. “I could ask you the same thing.” He said with amusement and curiosity clear in his voice.

“Ai Glorfindel, poets we are not, but lovers we were born to be.”


The end.