You May Never Know…

Title: You May Never Know… 8/?
Type: FPS
Author: Sivan Shemesh sivan325@walla.co.il
Beta: Manon.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Elrond/Legolas,
Warning: Angst. Slash. Tissues probably used in here. Are you still hanging on a cliffy?
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Tolkien. I just borrowed them. Lines from the film belong to New Line Cinema, and only have been borrowed for this story.
Timeline/Spoiler: Book+Movie Verse. AU.
Summary: The council is open. Elrond must make a decision which could mean he might not see his love again.
Note: The sequel of “Sacrifice Myself for You”.

8.

“Stop please… I cannot take it anymore, stop touching me…” Legolas asked and dared not to look in his lover’ eyes because he knew he would see the hurt in them.

He could feel his eyes filling with tears. He was hurting too, and it was almost too much to bear.

Elrond looked upon his lover’s face and stroked him softly. Knowing he had said the wrong words which he had not meant to say.

“Please forgive me, my love…” Elrond leant in and whispered in Legolas’ ear.

“I should not have said what I did; they were said rashly. All I have done is caused you pain…”

Elrond looked deeply into his lover’s eyes, searching for the love that normally shone from them. But he could see nothing; it was as if a shadow had covered Legolas’ heart.

“Legolas…” Elrond pleaded, and moved his hands over his lover’s heart. His eyes showed his fear as he thought that he was going to lose the love of his life.

“Please… leave me alone… I do not wish for your company…” Legolas muttered, his eyes elsewhere. He hugged his legs and lowered his head to avoid looking at Elrond.

Elrond stared at his lover, wanting to be certain. He then lowered his head in shame, bitterly regretting his words. Climbing down, he dressed and left the room sadly.

He wondered what he should say to Legolas’ guards or to his sons if they saw him now.

He went blindly into the forest; the love that he shared with Legolas seemed worthless now, though he was the one to blame, and his lover only suffered the consequences.

“Forgive me Legolas, I failed you…” he whispered and collapsed. He hurt, too hurt to face anyone at that moment.

“Adar?” He heard a voice calling, but he did not care anymore as he seemed to have lost the one he loved.

He raised his head, his face expressionless though his eyes began to fill with tears. He felt fragile and he knew that whoever saw him would see how he was feeling and possibly try and hurt him.

“Adar? It is I, Elladan…” Elladan said, his voice melting the snow like a hot iron as he saw his father’s face, and he tried to finish what he was saying. “I… we… looked for you and Legolas, father, we have been worried…”

Elladan looked around the area, but Legolas did not seem to be there. Elladan stared at his father, noticing the look on his father’s face, and wondered what had happened. “Father, has Legolas hurt you that badly?” he asked with a heavy heart

“It was I who hurt him, ion-nin, and I ask for you and your brother to escort him and his guards safely to his home…” Elrond requested of his son as he tried to hold back his tears.

“Father, you do not mean it, please tell me, that *you* did not mean it…” Elladan spoke with a heavy heart and continued to stare at his father.

Elrond nodded in agreement, and said as the tears flowed down his face, “I *do* mean it… it was I who hurt him by not trusting him, it was I that hurt his heart and soul…”

“Where is he?” Elladan asked softly. He wanted to unite them, he knew their love was strong, and he did not want them to lose that.

“Somewhere… I do not know where exactly…” Elrond answered, not seeming to care anymore, as his love had gone.

End of Chapter 8.

R/R