Have a little faith in me

5. New Hopes

Three weeks later, everything was back to normal. Billy had decided to let the family that was living in his appartment keep it and stay with Dominic. Obviously, Dom didn’t mind and both of them enjoyed spending time together.

One day, Billy hung up the phone and jumped on the couch looking at Dom.

“Hm?”

“Orlando called.” Billy said.

“Right... And?” Dom asked curiously.

“He’s having a party for his birthday next Saturday and we’re invited.”

“Great. Would’ve kicked his ass if we weren’t invited.” Dom grinned.

Billy laughed. “Yes. You have no plans right, because I said we’d come.”

“No, it’s fine. I’m looking forward to.” Dom said.

“Me too.” Billy smiled.


~ * ~ * ~


Said Saturday, Billy and Dom styled up for Orlando’s party and looked smashing in the new clothes they had bought that afternoon. Billy was wearing a pale pink shirt and a pair of blue jeans while Dom had decided for a black t-shirt with black jeans. When they were ready, they got into the car and drove to the club where the big party was.

When they arrived, the place was already very crowded. Everywhere were people, Billy and Dom didn’t know most of them. They scanned the room, trying to spot Orlando or other members of the cast of Lord of the Rings and finally they saw a part of them sitting around a big round table in a corner. When they arrived, they were greeted by everyone and were very glad to see some of the people they hadn’t seen since the shooting of the movies like for instance Craig or Cate Blanchett. They handed Orlando his present who was shaking his head, protesting that he hadn’t asked for any present. They took place next to their friends and starting conversations, as some of them hadn’t seen eachother in a long time.

A few hours and drinks later, nearly everyone was on the dancefloor. Exhausted, Dom signaled to Billy that he was getting a glass of water from the bar and he left his friend alone. Billy continued dancing, he hadn’t had that much fun in a while and was enjoying the evening, when he suddenly saw him. He had just spotted him briefly and wasn’t even sure if he had seen clearly, but when he looked back to the place, he was confirmed. There he was standing, gorgeous as ever, laughing at some tall goodlooking guy’s jokes. Elijah. It was over half a year ago that they’d split up, but Billy really wasn’t prepared to see him now. He stopped dancing, looking at him. After some seconds, their eyes met and Elijah looked at him for a while. Then he said something to his companion and moved towards Billy, who was still standing still in shock.

“Hiya.” Elijah said when he was standing in front of Billy.

It took Billy some time to get his thoughts together and eventually he answered with a brief ‘Hey’.

“How have you been?”

“Fine. And you?” Billy answered even if he’d wanted to yell at him and beat him for all the pain he had gone through.

“Great. Are you alone here?” Elijah asked.

Billy shook his head. “No, with Dom.”

“Oh, okay. How’s he?”

“Fine, too.”

After a pause where none of them knew what to say, Billy asked: “And you?”

“Oh, I’m with Tom, my... boyfriend.” Elijah answered pointing at the goodlooking man he had been with earlier.

Billy swallowed. “O-okay. Well, he... looks like he misses you already, you should go back.”

Elijah nodded: “Right. Okay. Well, it was good to see you. Bye, Billy.”

“Bye.” Billy said quickly, then Elijah turned around going back to his partner.

When Dom arrived back with his water, Billy was still staring at both of them who were kissing now. Dom looked at Billy with amusement, waving his hand in front of his face to make him notice him.

Billy looked at him, his eyes filled with tears. “Ex-excuse me.” He said, running out of the club.

Dom looked after him with a confused look, then looked around to figure out what had happened in those five minutes he had been away, when he saw Elijah. He shook his head in anger moving towards Elijah.

“You are such an ass, why don’t you just leave him alone?!” He yelled when he got to him, which made Elijah flinch.

“Hey Dom... what are you talking about?” Elijah asked.

“You know exactely what I’m talking about. Don’t tell me you didn’t know how much Billy has suffered because of you.” Dom said fiercely.

“I know, but I’m sorry for it. I just said hello, for Christ’s sake, where’s your problem?”

“My problem is that I don’t want him to get so fucking hurt again, alright?! Just stay away from him.” Dom said, emptying his glass over Elijah’s face, turning around in order to follow Billy.

When he came out of the club, he looked right and left, but he couldn’t see Billy.

“Billy? Billy?!?” he called but he didn’t get an answer.

Where could he be? He went to his car and drove around. He had to find him. Billy wasn’t emotionally stable yet, he was afraid that he would do something stupid. He checked every street around the disco, but he couldn’t find him. After half an hour when he still hadn’t found him, he decided to drive home, because eventually Billy would turn up there... hopefully.

When he entered the appartment, everything was dark. Billy wasn’t there. Dom was starting to worry. Where could he have gone? Did something terrible happen to him? He tried not to imagine the worst and went into his room and put on his pyjama. Then he sat down on the couch in the livingroom. He was determined to wait until Billy showed up. He sighed and prepared for a long night.

Suddenly he heard a soft noise from Billy’s room. He frowned, got up and went into Billy’s room. He slowly opened the door and looked inside.

“Billy?” he asked whispering.

He was answered with a sob.

He came into the room and closed the door behind him.

“Are you alright...?” he asked and sat down on the edge of the bed. When Billy didn’t answer, he continued: “I was so worried about you. I thought you’d done something terrible. I’m so sorry.” Then he crawled under the blanket and spooned Billy.

“It’s not your fault.” Billy sniffled. “It’s just... Elijah. I... I wasn’t prepared to seing him again. I thought I was over him, but apparently I wasn’t.”

“Yeah, I know. I saw him to. And believe me, he got what he deserved.”

Billy turned around to face him: “What? You hit him?”

Dom shook his head: “No, not exactely, even if I would’ve liked to do that. First, I yelled at him – you should’ve seen his face. And then I threw my water in his face.”

Billy looked at him: “You did what?”

Dom nodded.

Billy giggled and Dom had to grin.

“Thank you.” Billy said cuddling closer to Dom. Dom smiled and put his arms around his friend. “You’re welcome.” Then he accidentally placed a kiss on Billy’s – it was dark and didn’t see anything of Billy – lips. He meant to give him a kiss on his forehead or his nose or whatever, but not on the lips! When he realized what he had just done, he blushed.

“I’m sorry.” He mumbled embarrassed.

Billy didn’t say anything. After a few seconds, Dominic felt Billy’s lips on his chin, placing a sweet kiss on it. What did that mean? Was it only a goodnight kiss? Was it an invitation? Was it... whatever? Dom swallowed and decide to find it out. He decided that now was the right moment and he just had to risk everything to find out about his friend’s feelings for him. He put his hand on Billy’s neck, playing gently with his hair, then leaned a bit forward and put his lips on Billy’s. He was positively surprised as Billy immediately responded to it, by kissing him back. He closed his eyes and moved closer to him. He couldn’t believe his luck. His heart was pounding and there were a hundred butterflies in his stomach – at least.

After a while, the kiss became more passionate and Dom’s hand slowly and gently moved from Billy’s neck over his arm onto his back, softly carressing it. Billy’s hand was resting on Dominics hip. Not letting go of his love’s lips, Dom pushed Billy with his back on the mattress so that he himself was on top, when Billy suddenly broke the kiss.

“I... I’m not...” Billy stammered. He took a deep breath. “I’m not ready for this. I... I mean I’ve been hurt so much and I’m afraid... I’m sorry...”

Dom looked down at Billy, softly touching his cheek: “Billy, you don’t need to apologize... Who knows better what you’ve been through than me? I know that you’ve been hurt and I will do everything in my power to prevent that from happening again, alright? Just have a little faith in me... I’ve been loving you for such a long time now and I will give you all the time you need. I... I just wanted you to know that...”

Billy was speechless. “You love me?” He whispered after some seconds.

Dom realized that he just did it. He realized that it was finally out and he felt very relieved. He nodded and whispered: “Yes. From the first moment I saw you. I just never had the time to tell you, because first there was Elijah and then Alan and I hoped you would realize it, but you never did and I also never thought that you would ever be interested in me and... yes...”

Billy pecked him on the lips and hugged him tightly. “You should’ve said something. I always kinda fancied you but I didn’t wanna ruin our friendship.”

“Yes, I know. I was worried about that too. But now I think that my love for you has lasted for such a long time now and I can’t imagine ever loving someone else than you.”

“You are so sweet.” Billy said kissing him again. “You know that... how much I may have loved Elijah or Alan, the only arms I ever felt really safe and loved in were yours and I could always trust you and you have always been there for me and so I think I should give it a try because I do have faith in you and I know you won’t hurt me.”

Dom was so happy that he started crying. Billy was confused as he felt his cheek becoming wet.

“Dommie? What’s wrong?” he asked.

“Nothing.” Dom said pulling up his nose. “I just can’t believe all this. You can’t imagine how happy I am.” He said smiling and rolled off of Billy and pulled him into his arms. “I love you, Billy.”

“I love you too.” Came the soft answer from his lover. They held on to eachother until they finally drifted into sleep.


The End