My Dreams, My Heaven

Authors note: I don’t have enough time to write a longer chapter but I am getting this out to y’all to make you guys happy! I have to finish packing and work on my portfolio and it is consuming all my time! This is all done in what little spare time I have which is late at night! Thank you for your reviews! You are all wonderful!


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Italic = indicates thoughts

- Twins are yummy- = indicates the twins mind speaking to each other

'Elves' = means elvish being spoken

* Action * = indicates something being done physically by a character

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My Dreams, My Heaven
Chapter five

Legolas rubbed Las’ back hoping this would bring his friend some comfort. The twins were doing their best to lighten Las’ mood as well, telling him ridiculous jokes, and arguing in an amusing way with each other.


They did not know what was going on exactly but they had a good idea of what was happening. They knew Las had been acting strangely and has been more distant than usual. And now he wasn't feeling well and Erestor and Glorfindel wanted them to talk to him.

Legolas wasn't sure how to approach Las on this matter. Las was already very withdrawn, he wasn't willing to indulge others with his thoughts and therefore not many knew what he really like.

The twins and Legolas knew an entirely different Las from the Las that was known to the inhabitants of Imladris. But even the Las that they knew wasn't the full Las that lay within.


Las did not even know his own self and they had vowed to themselves to look after Las in everything. All three of them harbored feelings for him. They had admitted that to each other not to long ago. They wanted him, wanted him a part of the lives more so than he already was.


They would never approach him though; they loved him to much for that. Yes love that was what is was, they did not understand why they all felt this way but they knew that day. They had all felt something had been lacking in their bond and now they knew why.

When Las had come into their lives he made that emptiness go away. He filled the void and they wanted him with them forever. But they could not tell him not yet at least. Las was like a child to the world he understood so little and while now he understood and knew much more than he had when he had first come to them.


There was still much he did not understand and he was left confused most of the time to what was going on and what was in his world. He has been hesitant to do any sort of exploring before, while now they had hardly been able to keep him away from anything he wanted to know about.

Yet here he was laying in bed on his belly looking lost, confused, frustrated, and tired. He seemed to have no want to figure out what was happening to him. He had settled with what he had been told and then had clamed up not saying a word.

Now they were trying their best to cheer him up and speak to him about his troubles.

Legolas looked to his lovers; he was at a loss as to what else they could do to help him. Elladan shook his head and sighed, he too did not know what to do.

Elrohir leaned forward and kissed Legolas lightly on the cheek before laying on his side next to Las and placing his head on the same pillow as Las staring into his green eyes.

Las went a crossed eyed trying to focus on a way to close Elrohir.

“What are doing?”


Elrohir smiled triumphantly, his silver eyes sparkling with mirth


“A so the lovely creature does in fact speak, look brother!”


Elladan chuckled


“Aye and what a lovely voice his has!”


Las scowled rolling over so he wasn't facing them.

Elrohir looked to his twin saddened by Las’ reaction to their jokes.
“Las please say something to us, don’t shut yourself to us…don’t let what is bothering you fester it will only get worse”


He gasped, he thought he had kept his thought and fears well hidden, well enough that no one should have been able to guess what was wrong.

“You don’t know what you’re talking about, just leave me alone”


Legolas stroked Las’ hair “Nay Little Las we are not going to leave, we are staying here until you tell us what it is exactly that is bothering you”


Las closed his eyes burrowing his face into the pillow he gave a muffled reply


“I can’t tell you…”

“Can’t or wont Las, there is a difference”

Silence was their only answer…they sat waiting to see if Las would answer would answer them. They were just about to give up and try later when Las finally spoke.

“You will hate me…I can’t tell you because you will hate me…”


Elladan snorted

“Tis impossible to hate you Las…”

Elladan instantly regretted his choice of words when Las flinched and hugged his pillow tighter.

Images of his former life resurfaced once again. He had been hated then, and no one had loved him. Everyone was bent on making his life miserable; all he had known was pain and grief. He had not known anything else existed until he had come here.

“We could never hate you Little Las…you mean to much to us”

Legolas’ words rang through Las’ minds I mean to much to them…
A sob escaped him. They truly cared about him; he looked up at Legolas reaching a hand out to him.


“You promise you will not forsake me or laugh at me?”

Legolas grasped his hand

“I promise Little Las and you know the twins to as well, please Las tell us what is wrong we wish to help you”

Las sat up looking at his friends, they meant the world to him, he did not want to lose them for any reason and he trusted them more than anyone he knew.

The twins pulled him into a hug reassuring him with soothing words. That did it he would tell them everything not just a little but everything. They really did care about him and truly wanted to help him in anyway that they could.

He looked at Legolas gathering the courage to take the first step, taking a deep breath.


“You already know what is happening to me now… Erestor told me what was happening but I…I am so confused! Elrond told me I am the only one of my kind who is like this! Everything works! And I…”

The twins now on either side of him with Legolas in front of Las hugged him tighter reassuring him.

“And I think I am going crazy”


*sobs*


“Elrond said he was not sure if I would have working male and female parts but now I know that one works and…”


*big blush*


“I think the other is broken…”


Legolas’ eyes widened, he had not expected that…


“Las why would you think… “It” would be broken and why would you think you’re crazy?”


Las blush deepened the tips of his ears turning a flush pink color.

“I have woken up sticky between…my thighs…maybe I am sick…”
The twins pulled away from Las looking him in the eyes

“Little Las! That is normal!”

“What?”

“Little Las you are having wet dreams that is perfectly normal, everyone goes through that we all went through that…”

Las did not look reassured at all


“Why?”


Elladan looked confused


“What do you mean “why”?”


Las shivered


“These wet dreams are caused by dreams of sex yes?”


They all nodded


“Then why do we dream of such a terrible thing! And why do you get sticky!”


Legolas shook his head


“Sex is not a terrible thing Las it is pleasurable, very pleasurable, and enjoyable, it is done to express love…what it wrong now Las”


“You said it is plea...pleasurazle…how did you say it?”


“Pleasurable…”


“Yes that, what is that?”


“It is a feeling of your body when it is touched a certain way”


“And it feels good?”


“Yes Las very good…where are you going with this?”


Las threw his hands up in the air


“Sex is not a feel good thing! As far as I know and you still have not explained the stickiness!”


Legolas sighed this is going to take a lot of explaining


“Las the stickiness is the result of your body having found sexual release. It happens when you are aroused…”


“Then I am dreaming of good sex?”


“Yes”


“But why it seems cruel to dream of something good when it is bad”

Now the twins and Legolas were really confused

Elladan moved to next to Legolas and looked at Las closely

“Las…what exactly does sex mean to you?”

Las’ brow creased


“Sex is when someone wants to hurt someone else, when the hate each other…it makes you feel worthless…”

The three gaped at Las, his view of something so wonderful, so perfect to profess your love to your mate. Was warped now they realized the depth of his abuse…


Whoever had hurt him before had twisted everything that had to do with love into cruelty, hate, and pain… and whoever had done this to their precious Little Las was going to pay with their lives…

TBC…