Complications and Confusion

Title: Complications and Confusion
Author: cathankitten
Part: 5/?
Email cathankitten@yahoo.co.uk
Rating: PG-NC17
Warnings: M/M, spanking, mpreg,cutting, suicidal thoughts.
Disclaimer: The established characters, places, and languages are the property of the Tokien Estate, and the Tolkien Enterprises. This is a work of fanfiction written for fun, and no money or an

other form of painment is being made off of it.
Beta: rana
Author's Notes for story: This fic takes place mostly in Lothlorien. Some of the male elves are born with the ability to carry elflings. Yes, I know this has be done before :p Legolas is one of them,

and so are Elladan and Elrohir. These male elves are treated much differently then other males, or even females. They are the most rare and most protective, if sometimes over protected elves.

This means Elrond did not let Elladan and Elrohir did not go out orc hunting to avenge their mother. Of course he didn't discourage Arwen from doing so.I am just putting the ages they would be in

human terms, this is easier for me to do. Order of ages from olderst to youngest Haldir 30, Orophin 27, Elladan 23, Erohir 23, Arwen 21, Legolas 19, and Rumil 16. Yes, I made Rumil the

youngest instead of Legolas.
[~~~ = beginning of flashback
~~~] = end of flashback
++++ = scene changes

Chapter 5
It is early morning Haldir, Orophin and Legolas sit in
the living room of Haldir and Legolas' home. Orophin
told them that the twins were visiting their sister,
who would most likely spank Elrohir herself. Then all
laugh at the thought of Arwen punishing her older
brother, but knew she would do so.

"What do you mean you don't understand Rumil half of
the time? He's pretty easy to understand from my point
of view." Orophin asks replying to something Legolas
mumbled a moment before.

"Well this is something I don't understand: he said I
can't be myself, my brothers would run screeching to
the Grey Havens," Legolas informs them and shrugs.
Haldir turns and looks at Orophin, who returns his
gaze. They stare at each other for a moment, then get
out of their chairs and walk out of the room, towards
Rumil's room, leaving a very puzzled Legolas behind.
He starts to get up, but decides he doesn’t want to
follow, when he sees they are going to Rumil`s room.
"I thought he was joking when he asked us that
question" Orophin informs his brother.

"As did I. We must talk him right now," Haldir
replies.

"This is going to change everything, if he wasn’t
kidding that day," Orophin states.

"I think we can handle it and Legolas will help,"
Haldir informs him.

They stop outside Rumil's room and listen for a
moment. Then Haldir opens the door, so he and Orophin
can talk to Rumil. He sees Rumil sitting on his bed,
notices what the elfling is doing and rushes into the
room.

"Rumil, let go," He yells out as he grabs Rumil's arm
and tries to get him to drop the small blade. Rumil
tries to get Haldir to let go of him. He bites and
growls at him.

Orophin runs over and grabs a hold of Rumil's other
arm, causing the elfling to cry out in pain. Orophin
lets go and notices that the arm is cut up, as is the
other. ' How could we not notice this?' he kicks
himself mentally. He then grabs a hold of Rumil's left
hand, which is not cut and holds on tight.

"Noooooo go away, please, not supposed to see, not
supposed to see," Rumil cries out agony and pain
seeping out of his voice. "Stop, Rumil! Why are you
doing this? Stop at once! " Haldir demands, as he
continues to struggle for the blade. He doesn’t want
Rumil to injure himself further.

"Freak need pain. Don't go Haldir, don't go; don't
leave, I am sorry, please," Rumil cries out as he
tries to get the knife back to his arm so he can cut
again.

"Rumil we are not going to go to the Grey Havens, we
are not going to run away screeching. We thought you
were joking, baby. Please, if we had known then why
you were asking, if it was ok, if you are a maternal,
we would have said yes. Please Rumil stop this, stop
hurting yourself." Haldir urges, his voice shaking
with fright.

"I am a freak. Need pain.. need hurt.. never should
have been born.. should be killed.. tortured..

ridiculed.. only females should.." Rumil rambles out
as he realizes his brother figured out what he was.

"Stop it! You are no freak. I don't care what they
said either. They were wrong. Do you hear me, Rumil?"
Orophin cries out, as he struggles to stop his brother
from hurting himself.

" I am a freak, you will go now, stupid me couldn't
hide," Rumil rambles out then lets out a heart
retching screech.

He releases his grip on the blade, which Haldir
swiftly grabs and throws across the room. He gathers
his hysterical baby brother into his arms and rocks
him. Orophin hugs Rumil from behind and the three sit
there embracing.

"You are not a freak Rumil," Haldir reassures him.
"Not freak?" Rumil cries out, sounding not to sure.
"Yes, and we are not leaving," Orophin states as he
cries against his hurt brother.

"Not leaving," Rumil whispers.

"Yes we are not leaving and you don't need to hide
anymore." Haldir informs him.

"No hide, be self?" Rumil asks, sounding much younger
then his age. "Yes, be yourself." his brothers reply
together. "Arms hurt.. all dirty.." Rumil sobs out,
his body shakes "We will take you to the bathes now,
and get you cleaned up," Haldir states then glances at
Orophin, who is crying and says " Phin you have to
move so I can pick him up. You can hold his hand but
you must move."

Orophin reluctantly moves, so Haldir can pick up
Rumil. Once Haldir has done so, he begins carrying
Rumil out of the room as Orophin hold the elfling's
hand.

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"What is wrong?" Legolas asks with concern. He notices
Rumil's arms and gasps out.

"I will tell you later, Legolas. Please just let me
and ‘Phin handle this now. We are going to go to the
bathes to clean him up, and no you may not come. Just
stay here. I will return soon," Haldir informs him.

Legolas looks at his husband who is crying, then at
his brother-in-law, Orophin, who is as well. He
inclines his head and moves away so the brothers can
do what they need to. He walks over and down on the
couch, and waits for Haldir to return.

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Haldir and Orophin enter the bathes with Rumil, who is
shaking as if he is cold. Haldir notices that there is
a bath ready, and sees an elf about to enter it.

"Please may we use this bath?" he asks the elf.

The elf, who is about to enter, looks over at the
three brothers, notes their appearances and says " Of
course, do you want me to get a healer for you?"
"Thank you, but no, we can handle this ourselves for
now," Orophin replies.

"Very well, I will stand guard outside so no one else
comes in here until you are finished. I am sure you
would like to be alone," the elf informs them,
"Thank you," Haldir replies and nods his head.
They enter the bathe, without taking off their
clothing. Haldir sits Rumil on his lap so the
elfling’s head is rested against his left shoulder.
Orophin sits to Haldir's right. He lifts Rumil's legs
so they are on his lap, and he and Haldir talk
soothingly to him and they wash his arms, face, and
hand.

They try not to cry themselves, not so much, that
Rumil thinks he is causing them hurt. They watch as
the water turns pink from Rumil's blood and curse
themselves for causing him so much pain. Rumil cries
against Haldir, mumbling out stuff he did to himself
and stuff he did to Legolas and soon falls asleep.

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"How is Rumil? What was wrong? Why was he hurting
himself?" Legolas asks as soon as Haldir enters the
room.

"Sit down, Legolas, and I will tell you what
happened," Haldir replies sounding very tired and
somewhat in shock.

"What happened?" Legolas ergs again then sits down on
the couch.

Haldir sits next to him, and pulls him onto his lap.
He wraps his arms protectively around Legolas and says
" I am going to tell you now. Please let me tell you
everything without asking any questions. You can ask
them when I am done."

"All right," Legoals whispers and snuggles against his
husband. He knows it is bad, if Haldir is this upset,
and Rumil was hurting himself.

"I haven't talked much about my parents. They died
when Rumil was little, and every time we did talk
about them, he got upset. I thought it was because he
missed them, but I see now that wasn't so. You see my
parents hated maternal males, hated them with a
burning passion. They were always talking about how
pleased they were about having three strong paternal
sons.

About a month after they died Rumil asked Orophin and
I, if we would like a maternal little brother. We
laughed at this and Orophin said "I would run
screeching to the Grey Haven's if that happend." then
I added "Yes, paternal brothers are difficult enough.
" We both thought he was joking, but he was asking us
because he is maternal.

Our parents knew this but hid it. They made him dress
and act paternal. When we said that, he was so scared
that we would be left alone that he hid himself from
us, didn't tell us that he was maternal .

He wanted to act like himself, what he truly was, but
the fear of losing Orophin and myself stopped him. It
caused him to keep his pain inside, so much so that he
started hurting himself, and you.

Yes he told me about some of the things he did. I
don't know all of it. He was so upset. I believe he
was jealous because you got to act the way he wanted
to, and we didn't leave. He thought we would leave,"
Haldir explains to Legolas.

"Where is Rumil at?" Legolas asks as he cries into his
husband's tunic. He had no clue how hurt Rumil really
was. He is relieved that Rumil didn`t really hate him.
He knows that Rumil only did those things because he
was upset.

"He's asleep in his room" Haldir replies.

"You stupid paternal idiot!" Legolas yells and jumps
off his husband's lap.

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Legolas walks, as fast as he can to Rumil's room and
finds the elfling sitting up and crying silently. He
rushes over and pulls his brother-in-law into an
embrace and rocks him back to sleep. He looks over at
Haldir, who is standing in the doorway and says "
Don't leave him alone. He is far to emotionally and
physically hurt right now."

"Yes, I should have realized that, " Haldir sighs out.
"He is really upset about hurting you. I told him I
would punish him for it, but not for a while."

"Don't you dare. You hear me Haldir. Do not lay one
finger on him. You will not punish him for hurting
me,” Legolas hisses out and holds Rumil as if he was
his elfling and defends him, as a mother would her own
child.

tbc