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Adult ++
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17
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Don't think twice
Authors note; this is the sequel to Underneath it all, I want to thank all of you who gave me such sweet fb when I really, really needed it. And I want FB as always (I live for it you know :P ) – this must be one of my absolute favourite songs but one of my favourite singers. And I wrote this chapter, and the next one to this tune.. its the best bitter tune I know *lol*
- Please visit Milly’s and mine homepage http://www.nad-no-ennas.net
This is betaed by Lisbeth Karlsdottir – thanks sweetie.
-Az
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It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter anyhow
When the rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm travelin' on
But don't think twice, it's all right.
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
It's a light I never known
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
Still, I wish there was something you could do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right.
*Joan Baez – Don’t think twice
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Chapter 5.
Glorfindel woke alone and with a severe hangover. He moaned loudly when he tried to sit up, and decided against it, slumping down in his pillows once more. He turned his head and to his joy he found Elladan fast asleep beside him, so he stayed Glorfindel thought to himself, unable not to smile and lean over and kiss Elladan’s forehead. Did love really hurt this much or was it something he did wrong? He had had a lover in his past life, but he had died in the war, and Glorfindel had not cared to share his heart again with anybody, until Elladan had come crashing into his life.
The youngster had taken him with storm, Glorfindel had been reluctant and shut – but Elladan had been so young and careless with his heart and soul that Glorfindel had not been able to resist forever. The prince had been so sweet and seductive, and Glorfindel had been lonely. He had given in, made Elladan his lover and given all he had – given his heart and soul.
At first their love had been secret and forbidden, this had made it tender and yet desperate, when they had been found out. Glorfindel had hoped Elladan would have been happy and rejoice at their newfound love, but he had quickly found his lover to have changed. The prince would not come to his bedchamber with flushed cheeks and a cheesy smile, sometimes he would not even come. Glorfindel would lay alone wondering where his lover had went. In the start it had not been that hard really, he had made excuses in his mind. That Elrohir had had a bad dream, that Elladan was exhausted or whatever he could make up of logical reasons for his empty bed.
But one day he had seen it, he had seen Elladan kiss a fair elf from Lorien in the gardens, the ancient elf had felt his heart fall and shatter to the ground, almost able to hear the sound of the thousand pieces. He had turned and left casually. He had told himself that if he ever saw Elladan again he would rip his throat out, and leave him for dead. Then when the night had fallen, Glorfindel had curled up in his bed and cried, he wept like he hadn’t for years and years before, he had allowed himself to love and trust again. And yet his judgement had been so bad. His heart and body had yearned for Elladan’s sweet whispers and gentle touches, but they did not come that night.
The next day had been torture, and when night had settled once more Glorfindel had dressed for sleeping when he heard a light knock on his door, it had been Elladan. The Elda had felt his heart beat madly in his chest both from happiness to see the prince again, then he had not been replaced completely, but also from shame to be this weak. And he had done it, he had sealed his own doom a second time, he had allowed Elladan in his bed once more. He had beared his soul open for one that did not even want the gift he was giving.
And now when he looked at Elladan, his heart still fluttered, to believe this beautiful being was in his bed, he was here just for him. Glorfindel had learned to cherish every moment Elladan could spare him, every moment he could feel special, where he knew every little whisper, moan and touch was meant for him, and him alone.
Glorfindel smiled sadly and slipped out of the bed gently, tiptoeing to the bathroom drawing a bath. Elladan had to be sore Glorfindel thought to himself as he saw clad blood sticking to his stomach. He shook his head and closed the water before he descended slowly into the hot water. Letting it cover his weary body and aching muscles. He closed his eyes and sighed content, when he heard light steps on the marble floor, he opened his eyes and saw Elladan sneaking into the tub.
“Good morning my love” Elladan said softly and scooted over to Glorfindel leaning up against the broad chest
“Good morning” Glorfindel mumbled and wrapped his arms around Elladan, these were the moments he lived for, and the moments where he could tell himself that everything was all right, that Elladan loved him like he loved Elladan.
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Haldir stirred open acar car suddenly cried, he jumped out of the bed as quickly as he could to not wake Erestor who had stayed longer at the party than he had. Haldir took Amcar up from the cradle and quickly fetched a large blanket to wrap them both in as he went towards the kitchen to make a bottle for the baby, prating he wouldn’t wake every inhabitant at Rivendell before he reached there.
“There, there my moonbeam” he cooed and tried to smile a tired smile to the enfant, it apparently worked for Amcar’s crying softened.
He came to the kitchen and found it empty, he then fetched some milk to warm for the baby, while he sat down on a chair and waited. Amcar yawned; “I know exactly how you feel” Haldir whispered and kissed his sons hair
“I am leaving soon my heart” he suddenly said, he had thought about it for long, but now when the words had left his lips they felt like a doom, they felt so final. “You have to stay here with your other fathers” Haldir felt tears sting in his eyes, but the baby was not even remotely effected. “I can’t stay here my beauty,” he continued as he stood up to take the milk of the stove and fill it in a bottle, trying to cool down the milk once more.
“I wish I could take you with me, but I don’t think mama Legolas would let me” Haldir said smiling at the baby. Haldir suddenly smiled as he tried the heat out on the milk on his arm “I could ask him if we could go there for a little holiday, just while he thi things out with his family” Amcar smiled and cooed so Haldir took that for a yes.
He would have to move quickly then, to talk with Legolas today. Haldir sat down and began to feed the baby from the bottle, things hadn’t worked out like the had hoped, when he had arrived Erestor had been alluring and a bit frightening, they had had some amazing hours together, and Haldir had found out things about himself he did not know, and that still made him blush when he thought of it. But Erestor’s heart was dark, and Haldir knew he could not stay; he would be sucked down into the same despair as the chief councillor. And he had no intention what so ever of letting this apathy reach him too, if it reached him it would reach Amcar, and he could not let that happen.
Haldir sighed and looked down on the elfling that had fallen asleep in his arms without finishing the bottle, perhaps Amcar felt his grief, perhaps that was why he had waken and cried? Was he really as sad as he should be? Did he infact love Erestor or was it just something he told himself in order not to despair?
Now he would leave for Lorien, he knew that Orophin would just follow but what of Rumil? Had he really fallen for that smith? And would they be able to leave without him?
Haldir was torn out of his musings when the door opened to the kitchen and a very bleak eyed Orophin walked into the kitchen “Haldir? – Oh I didn’t think anyone was here” he mumbled
“Well I am” Haldir said in a tired voice “Hung over my dear brother?”
Orophin just nodded and went to grab an orange peeling it without a word, this peaked Haldir’s curiosity “why are you so silent Orophin?”
“I emh... I ...” Orophin stuttered, nit sure if he should tell his brother what was on his mind. He really wanted to tell he needed to be comforted and scolded.
“What did you do?” Haldir said in a worried tone and looked his brother in the eyes
“I ehm...” Orophin flinched “I bedded s-someone I should n-not have” he finally whispered
Haldir sighed and said “and who might that be? You can tell me Orophin – you know me better than to judge you”
“Elladan” Orophin whispered and looked down at his feet “I’m sorry Haldir, but he was just so... so..” the younger elf trailed off and kept his gaze on the floor
“Aiii Orophin that is wrong! You should not have done that, where was your head?” Haldir chided
“But he went straight to Glorfindel when we were finished, he said he had to get home before he would be missed” Orophin said as a childish defence.
“Orophin” Haldir said and rolled his eyes “you still should not have done that, but done is done dear brother”
“Yes” Orophin whispered, “can we please go home now?”“Yes“Yes my love, we can go home now” Haldir said and sighed while he caressed Amcar’s cheek “I need to speak with Legolas, and you” he said and stood up “You need to go sleep some more” he said and smiled at Orophin’s sigh of relief. “Should you meet Rumil, tell him I want to see him” Haldir said and opened the door to the corridor leaving Orophin in the kitchen.
“I want to go home, I just want to go home” he whispered to himself and took a deep breath venturing back to Erestor’s chambers.
-TBC-
- Please visit Milly’s and mine homepage http://www.nad-no-ennas.net
This is betaed by Lisbeth Karlsdottir – thanks sweetie.
-Az
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It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter anyhow
When the rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm travelin' on
But don't think twice, it's all right.
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
It's a light I never known
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
Still, I wish there was something you could do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right.
*Joan Baez – Don’t think twice
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Chapter 5.
Glorfindel woke alone and with a severe hangover. He moaned loudly when he tried to sit up, and decided against it, slumping down in his pillows once more. He turned his head and to his joy he found Elladan fast asleep beside him, so he stayed Glorfindel thought to himself, unable not to smile and lean over and kiss Elladan’s forehead. Did love really hurt this much or was it something he did wrong? He had had a lover in his past life, but he had died in the war, and Glorfindel had not cared to share his heart again with anybody, until Elladan had come crashing into his life.
The youngster had taken him with storm, Glorfindel had been reluctant and shut – but Elladan had been so young and careless with his heart and soul that Glorfindel had not been able to resist forever. The prince had been so sweet and seductive, and Glorfindel had been lonely. He had given in, made Elladan his lover and given all he had – given his heart and soul.
At first their love had been secret and forbidden, this had made it tender and yet desperate, when they had been found out. Glorfindel had hoped Elladan would have been happy and rejoice at their newfound love, but he had quickly found his lover to have changed. The prince would not come to his bedchamber with flushed cheeks and a cheesy smile, sometimes he would not even come. Glorfindel would lay alone wondering where his lover had went. In the start it had not been that hard really, he had made excuses in his mind. That Elrohir had had a bad dream, that Elladan was exhausted or whatever he could make up of logical reasons for his empty bed.
But one day he had seen it, he had seen Elladan kiss a fair elf from Lorien in the gardens, the ancient elf had felt his heart fall and shatter to the ground, almost able to hear the sound of the thousand pieces. He had turned and left casually. He had told himself that if he ever saw Elladan again he would rip his throat out, and leave him for dead. Then when the night had fallen, Glorfindel had curled up in his bed and cried, he wept like he hadn’t for years and years before, he had allowed himself to love and trust again. And yet his judgement had been so bad. His heart and body had yearned for Elladan’s sweet whispers and gentle touches, but they did not come that night.
The next day had been torture, and when night had settled once more Glorfindel had dressed for sleeping when he heard a light knock on his door, it had been Elladan. The Elda had felt his heart beat madly in his chest both from happiness to see the prince again, then he had not been replaced completely, but also from shame to be this weak. And he had done it, he had sealed his own doom a second time, he had allowed Elladan in his bed once more. He had beared his soul open for one that did not even want the gift he was giving.
And now when he looked at Elladan, his heart still fluttered, to believe this beautiful being was in his bed, he was here just for him. Glorfindel had learned to cherish every moment Elladan could spare him, every moment he could feel special, where he knew every little whisper, moan and touch was meant for him, and him alone.
Glorfindel smiled sadly and slipped out of the bed gently, tiptoeing to the bathroom drawing a bath. Elladan had to be sore Glorfindel thought to himself as he saw clad blood sticking to his stomach. He shook his head and closed the water before he descended slowly into the hot water. Letting it cover his weary body and aching muscles. He closed his eyes and sighed content, when he heard light steps on the marble floor, he opened his eyes and saw Elladan sneaking into the tub.
“Good morning my love” Elladan said softly and scooted over to Glorfindel leaning up against the broad chest
“Good morning” Glorfindel mumbled and wrapped his arms around Elladan, these were the moments he lived for, and the moments where he could tell himself that everything was all right, that Elladan loved him like he loved Elladan.
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Haldir stirred open acar car suddenly cried, he jumped out of the bed as quickly as he could to not wake Erestor who had stayed longer at the party than he had. Haldir took Amcar up from the cradle and quickly fetched a large blanket to wrap them both in as he went towards the kitchen to make a bottle for the baby, prating he wouldn’t wake every inhabitant at Rivendell before he reached there.
“There, there my moonbeam” he cooed and tried to smile a tired smile to the enfant, it apparently worked for Amcar’s crying softened.
He came to the kitchen and found it empty, he then fetched some milk to warm for the baby, while he sat down on a chair and waited. Amcar yawned; “I know exactly how you feel” Haldir whispered and kissed his sons hair
“I am leaving soon my heart” he suddenly said, he had thought about it for long, but now when the words had left his lips they felt like a doom, they felt so final. “You have to stay here with your other fathers” Haldir felt tears sting in his eyes, but the baby was not even remotely effected. “I can’t stay here my beauty,” he continued as he stood up to take the milk of the stove and fill it in a bottle, trying to cool down the milk once more.
“I wish I could take you with me, but I don’t think mama Legolas would let me” Haldir said smiling at the baby. Haldir suddenly smiled as he tried the heat out on the milk on his arm “I could ask him if we could go there for a little holiday, just while he thi things out with his family” Amcar smiled and cooed so Haldir took that for a yes.
He would have to move quickly then, to talk with Legolas today. Haldir sat down and began to feed the baby from the bottle, things hadn’t worked out like the had hoped, when he had arrived Erestor had been alluring and a bit frightening, they had had some amazing hours together, and Haldir had found out things about himself he did not know, and that still made him blush when he thought of it. But Erestor’s heart was dark, and Haldir knew he could not stay; he would be sucked down into the same despair as the chief councillor. And he had no intention what so ever of letting this apathy reach him too, if it reached him it would reach Amcar, and he could not let that happen.
Haldir sighed and looked down on the elfling that had fallen asleep in his arms without finishing the bottle, perhaps Amcar felt his grief, perhaps that was why he had waken and cried? Was he really as sad as he should be? Did he infact love Erestor or was it just something he told himself in order not to despair?
Now he would leave for Lorien, he knew that Orophin would just follow but what of Rumil? Had he really fallen for that smith? And would they be able to leave without him?
Haldir was torn out of his musings when the door opened to the kitchen and a very bleak eyed Orophin walked into the kitchen “Haldir? – Oh I didn’t think anyone was here” he mumbled
“Well I am” Haldir said in a tired voice “Hung over my dear brother?”
Orophin just nodded and went to grab an orange peeling it without a word, this peaked Haldir’s curiosity “why are you so silent Orophin?”
“I emh... I ...” Orophin stuttered, nit sure if he should tell his brother what was on his mind. He really wanted to tell he needed to be comforted and scolded.
“What did you do?” Haldir said in a worried tone and looked his brother in the eyes
“I ehm...” Orophin flinched “I bedded s-someone I should n-not have” he finally whispered
Haldir sighed and said “and who might that be? You can tell me Orophin – you know me better than to judge you”
“Elladan” Orophin whispered and looked down at his feet “I’m sorry Haldir, but he was just so... so..” the younger elf trailed off and kept his gaze on the floor
“Aiii Orophin that is wrong! You should not have done that, where was your head?” Haldir chided
“But he went straight to Glorfindel when we were finished, he said he had to get home before he would be missed” Orophin said as a childish defence.
“Orophin” Haldir said and rolled his eyes “you still should not have done that, but done is done dear brother”
“Yes” Orophin whispered, “can we please go home now?”“Yes“Yes my love, we can go home now” Haldir said and sighed while he caressed Amcar’s cheek “I need to speak with Legolas, and you” he said and stood up “You need to go sleep some more” he said and smiled at Orophin’s sigh of relief. “Should you meet Rumil, tell him I want to see him” Haldir said and opened the door to the corridor leaving Orophin in the kitchen.
“I want to go home, I just want to go home” he whispered to himself and took a deep breath venturing back to Erestor’s chambers.
-TBC-