In Her Words

Disclaimer: Tolkien owns them, I merely play with them.
Title: In her words
Author: Jade (aka Aragornsfavorite)
Chapters: 4/?
Rating: R for later chapters
Warning: AU, Angst, Het, Slash Implied
Beta: All mistakes are my own.
Feedback: would be nice!
Summary: Glorfindel reads part of his daughter journal to the others after she had sailed.


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Glorfindel had gone early to wait for the others. He had gone over this next part a few times and wondered briefly if this one was a good idea. Elladan was still grieving, far more then the others. Though Glorfindel understood, he was still concerned about whether having him hear her words of her journal was making him grieve even more.
“He needs this” Elrond’s voice broke Glorfindel from his thoughts.” In a way we all do”
Closing the journal briefly and setting it aside, Glorfindel looked over at Elrond.
“I am concerned that…” He arched an eyebrow when Elrond merely raised a hand and had silenced him
“He needs this” He repeated, falling silent and sitting down as some of the others had now joined them.

Lost in his own thoughts again, Glorfindel looked over when someone cleared their throat. He gave Erestor an amused smile when the chief advisor had arched an eyebrow at him. A sigh that let him know they were all waiting.
“Alright” He gave in and reached for the journal, opening it to the page that he had marked and took a deep breath, glancing briefly at Elladan then began to read

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Many things have changed since the last time I have written in this journal. This included how thing have been between Elladan and myself. I do not even know exactly when it had changed only that it has. No longer is he the annoying twin I always believed him to be, though he does still join in with his brother in many pranks around Imladris. We have gone beyond the bonds of friendship. Every morning now, I find myself looking forward too seeing him, hearing him or even just knowing he is close. We have been out riding every few days and for once it feels nice to be able to talk with just Elladan, not Elladan and Elrohir and especially not with the shadows of our fathers constantly watching and listening. It was a nice change and one I hope we can continue to enjoy as we have been.

The last ride we took was only a few days ago and this time we went further down by the lake. I am not surprised to learn that Elladan knew where to find a nice secluded area for us to sit. He has always knows my love of the water so taking me there was just perfect. It was at the end of that day that things had changed between us even more. Once we had brought out horses back to the stables I somehow managed to trip as I had just gotten down from my horse. Elladan was there before I had the chance to fall for which I was very thankful. It was the look in his eyes that had changed and before I even realized it, we were kissing. It was not my first kiss but was by far the best one I have ever had. One I will not be forgetting anytime soon or ever. The problem now is I have not seen Elladan since then. I am starting to wonder if he regretted what had happened and is now trying to avoid me. I hope that is not the case, I already miss having him around. ~~~


Glorfindel stopped reading as some servants came in with some wine and cheese for everyone. Looking towards Elladan, Glorfindel noticed he seemed to be lost in his own thoughts once more. If he were to guess he would say he was remembering the day Anira had been talking about.
“Had you been avoiding her?” Arwen soft voice filled the room, asking the one question that must have been on everyone’s mind for they all glanced at Elladan
“No” Elladan shook his head “I was just trying to stay away from Glorfindel” He told them, getting everyone to laugh quietly.
“No one can blame you for that” Elrohir stated” He was a just a bit overprotective”
Glorfindel have the younger twin a look that had been returned with a knowing grin. He had been right of course; Glorfindel was overprotective when it came to his only daughter. He even had a hard time letting her see Elladan when it became clear to everyone they were involved.
Sipping his wine slowly, he waited until everyone was settled in again then reopened the journal and began to read, jumping to a new page

~~ seven days after our first kiss I finally heard from Elladan. At first it was juts a small note left on my door with a single white rose attached. I knew his writing and had to smile as he asked me to meet him in the gardens by the fountain. I was glad to have a chance to see and talk to him yet I was also nervous about what he had wanted to say. I have to admit he looked adorable sitting there waiting but as I got there he seemed to look as nervous as I felt. I thought it was sweet as he took my hand when I sat at his side.

I was more then just a little relieved when he assured me that he had not been avoiding me, that he had not even been able to stop thinking about me. It was his concern of what my father would do after hearing that he had kissed me. He seemed to relax a great deal when I mentioned I had not mentioned to anyone what had happened, how could I when I was not even sure of anything myself. We sat in silence for while, merely enjoying each other’s company. He did not say anything when I had rested my head on his shoulder. His hand had reached up to play with the ends of my hair; it was a nice relaxing feeling.

I saw it coming this time, the slow way his hand had moved up to tilt my head up, the slight hesitation from him before he finally kissed me. It was what I had been wanting him to do since the first we had in the stables. Only this time it had not ended with just a kiss, this time when the kiss ended he tilted my head even more and began kissing my neck then even partially down my shoulder. It was then we heard someone clear their throat and as we both looked over we were met with Erestor. I, for the first time since I have known him, was not happy to see him. I was not ready to share Elladan just then. However he gave us a look and arched an eyebrow as he told Elladan he wanted to speak with him, it was not a request. Elladan promised he would come see me later. I laughed when he dared to kiss me again before getting up and walking off with Erestor. I still think I heard Erestor shout something though I have no idea what he may have said. ~~

“I asked him if he had lost his mind” Erestor added without being asked and had everyone laughing again, this time even Elladan as well. Glorfindel had stopped reading in order to take a sip of his drink. He turned the page again and saw that there was just a bit written and he read it quickly before lifting his head and glaring at Legolas.
“Glorfindel, what is it?” Erestor asked, noticing the look the golden elf was giving the Prince.
“Let me finish this and you will see” Glorfindel’s reply sounded more of a growl that time.

~~ I have never hated anyone as much as I despise Legolas at this very moment. Who does he think he is telling me that I am not good enough to be with Elladan? Telling me that Elladan needs to be with someone who is deserving of his affections. I know exactly what Legolas deserves and it involves a push and a high cliff. I know I should not say such things but at this moment I truly do not care. I know I cannot say anything of this to Elladan. Legolas is his dearest friend, after Elrohir of course. It was not even what he said that bothered me as much as how it was said. It was not a suggestion or even a request. It had been as if he had expected me to agree to end things with Elladan then was insulted when I refused. He may be the Prince of Mirkwood by while he is here in Imladris he is nothing more then a mere guest. Then to add insult to injury he had tried to kiss me after backing me up into a wall. I really do hope he had a fun time explaining to everyone why he suddenly had a broken nose. ~~

Glorfindel had looked up in time to see Elrohir stopping Elladan. His guess was Anira had never mentioned this and Elladan’s anger was getting the best of him. Legolas had stepped back, just out of Elladan’s reach. It was Elrond who got up to calm his oldest son and had Elrohir escort him out of the hall.
“Consider your self very lucky, Legolas” Arwen said as she stood up before him, looking his directly in the eyes.” Had either myself or my brothers heard of this before you have had more then just a broken nose” She added as she tapped his nose with her finger before turning to go after her brothers.
Glorfindel merely closed the book hard, stood up and enjoyed the way Legolas had taken even more steps back. With a slight Nod in Erestor’s direction, Glorfindel had turned and also walked out of the hall.

TBC…