You May Never Know…

Title: You May Never Know… 4/?
Type: FPS
Author: Sivan Shemesh sivan325@walla.co.il
Beta: Manon.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Elrond/Legolas,
Warning: Angst. Slash. Are you still hanging on a cliffy?
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Tolkien. I just borrowed them. Lines from the film belong to New Line Cinema, and only have been borrowed for this story.
Timeline/Spoiler: Book+Movie Verse. AU.
Summary: The council is open. Elrond must make a decision which could mean he might not see his love again.
Note: The sequel of “Sacrifice Myself for You”.

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4.

Elrond did not what to say, but only looked on his lover’s face.

“Why?” Legolas asked.

“I fear to lose all that I love. I cannot face another leaving; my heart will not take it,” Elrond explained.

Legolas embraced him and felt ashamed. He did not mean to hurt his lover, and he did not know that his promise to him would make it worse.

“I am sorry,” Legolas said.

“You did not know, my prince,” Elrond said, and hugged him back, wanting to feel him, and to smell his scent once again.

“No… I…” Legolas tried to say, but the words did not come.

Elrond moved his finger onto the prince’s lips, and said: “It was not your fault - I should have told you.”

Legolas looked at him, and wondered why he had not.

“I…” Elrond said, and moved his hands to stroke his lover’s face. “I was worried of your reaction,” he explained.

“I never thought that I would cause you so much pain,” Legolas said, his heart aching.

“No… do not say it,” Elrond said, and hugged the prince.

Legolas insisted. “But I did cause you pain.”

“You gave also pleasure and a feeling of love, Greenleaf,” Elrond said and kissed him softly on his lips.

Legolas broke the kiss; his thoughts were full of guilt for what he done, he could not face the one he loved.

He felt ashamed.

Elrond looked at his lover and wondered what was happened now.

“Why do you suddenly look so sad?” Elrond asked.

Legolas lifted his head and looked deeply inside Elrond’s soul, and could feel the love and the sadness within.“I hurt you inside…” he cried.

“No you did not…” Elrond tried to comfort his lover, and took his hand and tried to lead him back to his room.

“Come love… we will discuss it in the other room…” Elrond tried to cheer him, and opened the door.

Elrond helped his lover to lie on the bed, and then closed the door before joining him.

Legolas laid his head on the pillow; his eyes were not on Elrond’s face, instead his eyes were on the wall.

Elrond realised that Legolas did not want to talk any more. “I will leave you alone…” Elrond said, and walked out of the room, closing the door gently behind him.

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Outside the room…

Elrond stood outside the room and cried.

Aragorn was the first to see his adar crying, and he hoped that nothing had happened. It was the first time he had seen Elrond cry.

Aragorn came closer to him and asked: “Adar, why are you crying?”

“I fear that he will leave me now… he feels guilty and ashamed for all the pain he has done to me…” Elrond mumbled.

Aragorn hugged his adar, letting the Elf-lord cry on his shoulders.

“Adar?” Aragorn asked, as he broke the hug. When he got his father’s attention, he continued: “Go to my room and rest, as the council will start tomorrow.”

“I think I will do that,” Elrond responded.

“You will be alright…” Aragorn said, trying to cheer him.

Aragorn watched as his father disappeared from his sight, and then stepped into the room. He saw the prince with tears rolling down his cheeks, his face full of pain.

“You hurt my father!” Aragorn said, accusation in his voice.

“I shall leave at once,” Legolas whispered. He knew that he had caused his lover to be in so much pain.

Aragorn did not seem to hear him.

“Why did you hurt him? He loves you,” Aragorn said.

Legolas felt he was being blamed, and the guilt grew stronger inside of him.

‘I only made a promise that I will not leave him. What have I done wrong? Maybe I should leave before I cause any more pain…’ Legolas thought.

Elladan entered the room and heard Aragorn’s words, and heard the accusation in them. He also noticed the pain on Legolas’ face.

“Leave him alone, brother,” Elladan said.

Aragorn turned around and saw his brother standing in the doorway, staring at him, and looking worried. He started to make his way out of the room, but when he tried to pass his brother, Elladan caught his arm.

“He was already in pain…” Elladan said.

“I did not know. I only saw father in pain,” Aragorn replied.

End of Chapter 4.

R/R