Angel

Title: Angel – Touch me (3/3)
Author: scots_rock
Pairing: THE one and only: Monaboyd
Rating: R up to NC-17, this part NC-17
Summary: This happens when an Angel (Dom) and a Mortal Man(AU) fall in love with each other– they end up in bed doing a lot of fluffy smut! (AU) This time: Dom’s third visit. His last one?
Disclaimer: LIES
Feedback: appreciated! ^^
Author’s Notes: Based on the wonderful song “Climbing the Walls” by Backstreet Boys! *sighs* omg! This is sooooo unbelievable! This song MUST HAVE BEEN WRITTEN for Monaboyd!!!! Lyrics at my place! (incl. story and blend!)

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Billy stays a long time lying in his bed, sheets covering his body partly, thinking. After some time he gets used to the unstoppable tears that stream down his cheeks. A terrible thought occurs to him suddenly. What if Dom only abused him? Get what he wanted and left? That will make him a monster, a beast, who has no feelings. But on the other hand it all seemed so intimate, so pure. All those loving caresses and touches and kisses… Can it be that it all was just a lie?

After a while Billy stands up and goes to the bathroom. He takes a quick shower switching the water from warm to cold. He has to wake up. It has been a dream. It is stupid to think that Dom feels something for Billy. Confusion overcomes Billy. Unsure and depressed he gets dressed and stats making himself something to eat. While cutting the bread he’s looking out of the window. Rain clouds. Even the skies seem to cry for the loss of Dom.

“Fuck!!”, Billy screams and looks down on his now bleeding index finger. “Damn it!” That is just another evidence of Billy’s lack of concentration.

His appetite is suddenly gone. Instead he’s about to wrap a piece of handkerchief around the wound when he halts and watches the blood coming out of the wound. The blood, that’s him right now. Streaming out of his body, out of life, not knowing what will happen next.

He throws the unused handkerchief into the bin and sucks at his finger.

He is a wreck without him. He doesn’t know what to do with himself anymore. He is completely helpless. And there it is. The fear of Dom not returning. Of Dom leaving him in this state forever. Torturing him. Letting him suffer. He doesn’t even need to keep himself from crying. He has cried all his tears this morning. Why does Dom do this? What has Billy done to deserve such pain? Why…?

There it was. The Question.

If he stays here he simply will go crazy eventually, Billy’s sure of that. He grabs his rain jacket and slams the door shut behind him. He has to find him. No matter what. No matter if it’s allowed or nor, no matter if it’s impossible. He will find him and he will ask him the question. And this time he will get an answer.

~***~

He runs around in the city. Again. But this time it’s different. Empty streets, everything covered in gray colors. No people. The now falling rain has shooed them away into their houses, in front of their mantelpieces, with their families and lovers. Billy tries not to think about it. Everyone has someone except for him. He pulls the hood of his jacket over his head and walks on. He thinks about going to the cross where they met for the first time. But then he decides against this idea. He won’t be there, waiting for Billy to embrace him and kiss his tears and fears away.

So Billy stands there right in the middle of the main street. He doesn’t really know where to go or whether he shall search Dom at all. Maybe it’s all wrong. Maybe this is it, and not more. Passion and lust. But being where he is right now, feeling the rain drops tickling him and enjoying this, he doesn’t want to go home yet. He looks to the right and sees the small city park. Arriving there minutes later he heads for a little space of green grass and comes to a halt there.

Sadness, grief and pain fill his heart – and guilt. He feels guilty because he has Dom let go so easily. He didn’t hold on to him. He fell asleep. He lay there, eyes closed, dreaming, while Dom edged away silently. He wants to scream out loud, this feeling is so unbearable it is unbelievable. It hurts. Billy is cold and shivers slightly under his jacket, feeling the goose bumps spreading over his whole body. He misses Dom, his touch, his kiss, his hands, his lips. He tries to recall his face, the fine line, the sharp cheekbones, but ti all seems blurry and unclear. The rain falls down harder and harder, it’s like a real end-of-the-world-atmosphere, though there is no thunder or lighting, just rain, water. Tears…

“I wanna know the reason why.”

Billy breathes in sharply. He knows that voice.

“Why what?”, he asks silently, a whisper, almost inaudible. His voice has left him.

“Why I can’t stop being around you.”

Still Billy stands there motionless, not looking behind him. For if he does he will throw himself in the arms of Dominic clenching his fingers so deep into the younger man that there is no chance of running away again for Dom.

“Why I am sad when you’re not with me.”

Billy’s eyes become watery, his lips curl into a hopeful smile.

“Why I feel empty each time I leave you.”

It is now that Billy turns around to look straight into bluish, gray eyes. He’s so close, standing opposite of him, his breath touching Billy’s skin. His hair is glued to his forehead because of the rain, small water pearls create themselves on Dom’s face, his breathing is steady and calm. His clothes get wetter each second making his black coat shine a little. So do his eyes, sparkling like two diamonds. Dom’s hand rests on Billy’s cheek in the same familiar and loving way as he did the last two nights.

“You really wanna know?”, Billy asks, the only sound now coming from the pouring rain.

Dom shakes his head slightly. “I know it already. I was only too blind to see.”

Billy’s hand covers Dom’s on his cheek. The question lies on his tongue, he just have to ask it in the proper way.

”Why me?”

Dom smiles at that and leans forward to place a soft kiss on Billy’s lips.

“Because you were the only one who saw me. You were the only one noticing me.” Another kiss caresses first Billy’s left then right eye. “I’ve made you a part of me. For I fell in love with you.”

Billy’s forehead folds and he blinks several times. “This pain I felt…” His hand slips from Dom’s to the place over his heart gripping his jacket tightly. “It was you…”

But instead of answering Dom again kisses him, this time vehemently but still lovingly, his tongue seeking Billy’s. And so they stand while Dom’s great, white wings cover them both keeping the rain from falling down on them.

~***~

“You’re soaking wet.”, Billy remarks as they enter his flat and Billy takes off his jacket.

“Afraid I might get a cold?”, teases Dom.

Billy blushes and gets rid of his wet shirt.

“Not very waterproofed, that rain jacket.”, notices Dom letting his coat slip to the ground as he slowly approaches Billy. “I’ve missed your face.”

He cups Billy’s chin and brushes with his thumb over his lips before placing a kiss there. Billy moans into Dominic’s mouth when Dom rests his flat hand on his naked spine and intensifies the kiss even more.

Billy pulls back suddenly and looks into Dom’s eyes.

“What will happen after the kiss? After the touch?”

Dom doesn’t answer but while smiling he takes Billy’s hand and leads him into the familiar bedroom of Billy’s. After pushing him down softly on the bed Dom unfastens Billy’s belt and pulls the zipper down. He takes off Billy’s trousers and throws them to the floor, then covers Billy’s body with his own one and kisses him again.

“After I kissed you, after I touched you, I will lie down beside you. I will hold you in my arms till you will fall asleep.”

Dom’s head rests on Billy’s chest.

“I will feel your heart and I will recognize it beats in the same rhythm as mine. Then I will close my eyes and will fall asleep beside you.”

Billy lays his hand on Dom’s head and dig his fingers on that blonde fuzzy hair.

“I don’t know if I can bear you leaving me again.”

Dom looks up.

“I need you, Dom. I…” He can’t speak on, words seem very unhelpful and useless right now.

Dom rolls from Billy’s body but keeps watching the Scotsman.

“Satisfy me, Billy.”

Billy sits up hearing these words, not believing Dom has actually said that.

“You want me to…” Billy slides nearer to Dom, a hand reaching out to cup Dom’s jeans-covered arse. “You want me to be inside you? Here?”

Dom nods slowly not losing eye contact. Billy smiles and helps Dom taking off his trousers. When they finally lie next to each other, naked skin on skin, Billy starts kissing Dom vehemently, his hand moving up and down Dom’s spine. He goes over to kissing Dom’s neck, shoulders, and when he has difficulties to reach Dom’s back, Dom turns on his abdomen. Billy licks and sucks his way up and down Dom’s soft skin, and when his chest finally meets Dom’s spine, the younger man breathes in sharply. He spreads his legs and starts whimpering and pleading for release. The smile on Billy’s face doesn’t leave, he is ready to satisfy Dom’s desires, as he did for Billy the last two nights. His erection is causing him pain, begging to feel Dom’s tightness around it.

Billy’s body moves back so that he sits between Dom’s spread legs. He reaches for the lube hidden in the first drawer of his night table. He squeezes a bit of it on his left hand which after that goes down to his cock. With the other hand he strokes thighs and knees, kisses Dom’s cheeks before wetting two of his fingers with salvia. He then slowly thrusts one finger into his lover, his respond being loud moans and lifting his hips. Second finger, more moans, almost whining this time. Billy scissors them then pulls out again to replace them by his cock.

“Billy…”, Dom breathes, lifting his head slightly then letting it fall down hard on the pillow.

When Billy’s completely buried inside Dom he leans forward, caressing Dom’s shoulders and spine with his lips and tongue, while slowly thrusting in and out.

“I won’t hurt you…”, Billy whispers into Dom’s ear under faster moving hips. With every thrust moans and whines escape Dom’s lips, which turn Billy even more on.

They are one. They seem to melt into each other. Their bodies seem to be made for each other. Billy has never felt anything more beautiful in his whole life when he comes, spreading his cum in Dom. He feels Dom tense and shiver under him and knows that his lover has been satisfied.

They lie like this for what seems an eternity. Motionless. Sweaty. Panting heavily.

Billy kisses Dom’s neck, nuzzles his hair with his nose. He opens his mouth to speak.

“I know what you’re trying to say, Billy. Don’t spoil the moment. Let the silence surround us.”

Billy nods, sad and disappointed, and moves away from Dom’s back, rolling to the side. He doesn’t understand why Dom doesn’t want to hear what he has to say. But all his sorrows pass away at once when he feels a hand on his cheek. Dom.

“I will keep my promise.”

He presses Billy to his chest, wraps his arms around him and both fall asleep.

~***~

Billy wakes up, lying on his belly, his arms wrapped around the pillow. He opens his eyes slowly and recognizes he’s the only one in bed.

“Dom?”, he asks sleepily and looks around. No answer. At once Billy is awake. He looks around, anxious and nervous.

Billy’s relieved sigh fills the space as he sees Dom standing by the window, apparently deeply in thoughts.

“What are you thinking of right now?”, Billy asks silently.

“You.”, Dom answers motionless, still staring out of the window, letting the morning sun shine golden on his face. Billy thinks he looks somehow angelic.

“Will you leave me?”

Dom’s eyes meet Billy’s and Billy can see the sudden sadness in his eyes.

“Yes.”, is the quiet response which shatters Billy’s world. “Someday.”

He walks over to Billy and lies down beside him. He kisses him gently. Billy feels like crying but the warmth of Dom’s body, his nearness, his love make him forget his tears.

“But not now.”, Dom adds in a whisper. “Not now…”


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