Lonely Hearts

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Erestor spent most of his afternoon looking for Valandil, but he didn't succeed in finding him. Finally he gave up and took the seat on bench, which was located in the garden. He nourished the sight of the roses and colorful flowers that gave this garden incomparable beauty. He was thinking about that Lorien brat Valandil and where he might be. The only place he didn't check was the Elladan's bedroom, but that was because he was dreading what he might see there. " That little cheating bastard. How can he do that to...." Erestor grumbled but was cut by the sudden voice interrupting him from behind.

"Hello Erestor. How are you this afternoon? Hmmm... who is that bastard person. It's not me. Is it?" Glorfidnel was standing behind Erestor's back with a smug smile on his face.

Erestor turned around and was immediately dumbstruck. He found that it was very hard to breathe, because those blue eyes and smile were so fascinating to him. Plus his heart raced with unstoppable speed, and the words didn't cooperate with his brain at this moment. Finally he managed to say something, praying to Valar that he wouldn't sound stupid.

"No, No it's not you. Never you...I am fine." Erestor said blushing, realizing that he had just sounded like little elfling gifted with poor usage of sentence. He hit himself mentally, trying to compose his actions. Oh, but those eyes. Well, he needed to get away now, somehow, before he doesn't stutter something embarrassing again.

"I am glad that you are not angry at me, my friend. Tell me. Who was the person that you were talking about, just now. Do you have a lover who by any chance made you angry today? "Glorfindel questioned with amusing expression on his face.But there was something that clicked and stung his heart at the thought of Erestor having a lover. He didn't know why he felt that way, because he only considered Erestor asrienriend. He should be glad for Erestor, and for the fact that he had found precious love of his life.

"No, I don't have a lover. I am just talking about somebody...Well, never mind. So how are today, my friend. How fares Valandil?" Erestor asked while he managed to get a calm expression on his face.

"He is fine and so am I. I have some trouble finding him today, and I am very concerned about his wellfare. Erestor, do you know where he might be." Glorfindel asked with concerned look on his face.

"No, Glorfindel, I didn't see him at all today. Don't worry he probably went riding, or something" Erestor softly said, while he tried to avoid Glorfindel's gaze. (Yes, Valandil is definitely riding. But NO, not horse, he is riding Elladan). Erestor thought while sadness graced his face. How can I live with this secret which I am keeping from Glorfindel, he wondered. He wished that he could beat some sense into Valandil.

"Erestor. Is everything all right with you." Glorfindel asked curiously while he pondered about Erestor's expression that lingered on his face.(He is hiding something from me!) Glorfindel thought while he was still keeping his gaze on his friend.

"Yes, everything is fine. Don't worry about me."

"You look kind of palish.Did you get some sleep last night? Mellon-nin, I have one question for you. Are you hiding something from me." Glorfindel tried to put some pieces of the puzzle together, and he knew that something was amiss. But he didn't know what.

"Well, mellon-nin your papers kept me up all night, and sleep was not the option for me. Glorfindel...why do you think that I am hiding something from you. Trust me, I would never betray you by keeping some secrets from you. Never. "Erestor said but in his mind he wished that he could hide at this moment. He told a lie to his friend, and he knew that he would never forgive himself for that.

"I know but...There is something that I don't know, and I have a feeling....Never mind Erestor these are not your troubles, but mine." Glorfindel said while he took the seat on the bench.

"Glorfindel you know if there is anything I can do for you 'anything' I will do it. What exactly troubles you, my friend." Erestor asked in soft tone, knowing what the trouble was, but he wished at this moment that he didn't.

"Erestor, I don't know. I only know in my mind that somebody is betraying me. I just don't know what to do in order to find out the truth." Glorfindel looked at Erestor with suspicious expression on his face. He still thought that the other one is hiding something.

"Glorfindel you are probably imagining things. Everything will turn out alright. Trust me. Now if you will excuse me, I have some work to do. I will see you later" Erestor said and lowered his head trying to suppress tears that were about to grace his eyes.

"Sure you are excused. Do you need some help?"

"No, I am fine. Thank you for the offer " With that Erestor turned around and left, not being able to stay much longer and lie to Glorfindel.

Glorfindel sat wondering about those almost visible tears on Erestor's eyes. Glorfindel felt lost in this tunnel without light. Only time will tell if people around him were truthful.

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I want you so bad, make love to me." Valandil passionately whispered while he kissed Elladan's neck.

"You'll have me. Oh, I love you so much." Elladan said with equal fervor while he tried to divest Valandil from the clothing. Elladan so badly wanted to have Valandil in his life, and he would make sure that he would get him. Later he needed to talk to Valandil about their future together.

(Oh gods, but not now.Later.)Elladan thought.

"Ahem...."The figure of his father standing at the door interrupted them. Elrond stood in the shock, not believing his eyes as he thought.(So it is true)

"Ada, what are you doing here. Why are you disrupting my privacy."Elladan yelled, irritated at his father and hoping that he would go away?

"Son, I need to talk to you right now. If you don't mind. Valandil please excuse us "Elrond said in determinable tone, crossing his arms about his chest.

"Yes, my lord." Valandil said taking his shfromfrom the floor.

"Valandil stay. Please father leave me be. I am not in mood for any of your boring talks."Elladan pleaded while he took Valandil's hand in his.

"No, it's okay Elladan. I'll be back later." Valandil kissed him, and then he left the room.

"All right father. What do you want to talk about?" Elladan said with questioning gaze taking a seat on his bed.

"Elladan, have you lost your mind. I really cannot believe that you are seeing Valandil. I did my best to raise you well, and now I think that I made a mistake somewhere. Elrohir told me that you don't care if Glorfindel gets hurt, because of the fact that you two can't keep hands from each another. I know that I didn't raise heartless creature, but now I am not so sure." Elrond yelled at Elladan pretty much irritated at his sons behavior.

"Father, you and Elrohir don't understand. I love him and I am not giving him up. I would like for you two to be happy for me, not angry." Elladan said softly with teary eyes.

"Listen to me Elladan. Love born out of a deceit is no love. You need to talk to Glorfindel, and tell him about your feelings for Valandil. Trust me, he will understand. But if you two go on and hide behind his back, you will break his heart and loose his trust." Elrond said while he pated his sons back.

"Father, thank you for your advice. I will listen to it this time. Are you still angry at me." Elladan asked cautiously.

"No, I am not angry any more .But promise me that you will talk to Glorfindel tomorrow.And one more thing Elladan.You need to apologize to Elrohir.Your brother cares for you,and yes maybe he is a little overprotective,but that's what brothers are for.Feel lucky you have him."Elrond said while placing a kiss upon his sons brow.

"Yes,I'll apologize to my brother.I realize now that I wasn't fair to him today.And also I promise that I will talk to Glorfindel tomorrow."

"And one more thing. I don't want you and Elrohir to ever fight again.You are adults now,not babies,and every situation you should handle with more mature talk.About this Valandil matter,my son,I advise you to be careful.Don't give your heart freely if you are not sure that other will give you his own with equal passion.Be cautious."Elrond said worryingly words of the warning to his son.

"I'll be careful father.I know Valandil loves me,so don't worry."

"Good.Now I must leave you.I have a quite a lot paperwork to go through.I'll see you at dinner tonight."Elrond said,and closed the door behind him leaving towards the direction of his study. After a while Elladan left his room too,and went to search for his brother.

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Elrohir was sitting on his favorite tree thinking about todays events,and latest fight with his brother.Sunset was approaching Imladris,and he enjoyed the sight throughly.

"Elrohir".Soft voice just like his own,brought him from his musings,and he saw his brother standing beside his tree.

"Elrohir,come down I need to talk to you."Elladan smiled at his brother,hoping that he wouldn't be so stubborn to come down.

"I don't want to.You come up and then we'll talk."Elrohir stubbornly said,and decided to ignore his brothers next requests.

"But...All right I'll come up"Elladan smirked still surprised by his brothers childish ways.It took Elladan about five minutes to reach his brother who was on the top branch of the largest tree in Imladris.In those five minutes he almost had fallen couple of times.Cursing his brothers choices of the trees he finally made it.

"Elrohir...I am so sorry about everything that happened this morning."He started,but he was still dreading his brothers reaction.Silence was all that greeted him this moment, from his brother.He continued with hope that his twin would forgive him and understand.

"Elrohir,I am sorry I said that you don't have any compassion for me.I just realized that some things you said to me were true.I talked to father today,and he gave me some advice.Father told me that I must tell Glorfindel about my love for Valandil,before he finds out on his own.Elrohir,please forgive me."Elladan begged with puppy eyes as he hugged Elrohir affectiontally.

"Elladan...I can't...I don't....I must go"Elrohir tore himself from his brothers hug. He got down from the tree,and left clearing with tears in eyes.He could hear his brother calling his name but he paid no attention to it.How can he live with the knowledge that his brother will belong to someone else.He thought while the jealousy tore his heart.He decided that he will stay in his room tonight because the dinner didn't sound inviting to his stomach and he needed some peace to organize his thoughts.

"Elrohir...."Elladan called his brothers name not understanding what just happened.He was in deep shock.What is wrong with Elrohir.Why did he say(I can't).Elladan thought that maybe he had deeply insulted his brother in some way.It pained him that for the first time he couldn't figure his brother out.Yes they shared a deep bond, which was the usual occurrence between the twins,but something was wrong with his brothers heart.Elladan realized that his brother was hiding something from him.The secret.They never had secrets between them,because everything they had,they shared amongst each other .But then he realized that he himself had hid relationship with Valandil from his brother,and the guilt overcame him. Elladan asked himself while he glided down the tree.(I need to find out)

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Elrohir gasped as the wet mouth enved hed his shaft.Fingers of the 'other' traced his puckered opening,teasing but not probing inside.The 'others' mouth sucked Elrohir's shaft furiously,as the teasing finger entered him finally.Elrohir was in heaven,and he never wanted this feeling to end.In a few seconds Elrohir exploded inside of the 'others' mouth,moaning his brothers name over and over again.Teasing fingers didn't leave him yet,and soon they were replaced by the 'others' large cock.The feelings within him took him into the ecstasy,while the cock of the 'other' pumped into Elrohir again and again. Elrohir screamed as he came second time this night,and the 'other' followed too, spilling his passion juices.Trembling bodies looked at each other ,and suddenly everything just disappeared,as Elrohir was waking up. Elrohir stared at the ceiling for a long time ,as the memory of the dream shook him to the core.It was the wet dream ,the one he used to have when he was the mere elfling in puberty,but this time it was different.This time it included his brother.Elrohir never had those kind of dreams about his brother,and he didn't quite understand what was all this about. He didn't know what had provoked this dream.Yes he loved his brother more than he should,and maybe subconscious bit was tel him him that he wanted to make love to his brother.But maybe it was just an usual dream without any meaning.So why did it felt so real then.He got up from the bed and changed soiled sheets,trying to suppress every thought swirling around his head .After a while Elrohir went to bathing room and cleaned himself up.(Ai, brother I love you so much)Elrohir thought as the tears graced his eyes.He prayed to Valar that the same dream wouldn't reach his brother tonight.(What would happen if Elladan finds out about about my feelings.I know he will hate me)Elrohir slightly panicked as that thought came to his mind.He needed to get away from his room,before everything catches up with him and chokes him inside.(Where can I find some peace tonight?)

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Ai,Elrohir..."Elladan jumped from the bed,like surprised mouse chased by the cat,as his sleep was interrupted by the strangest dream he ever had in all his life .The dream was so weird and sexy to him,but at the same time it felt so strangely wright.Elrohir was the one in his dreams tonight,and Elladan struggled with his mind to overcome these thoughts.(Why was I dreaming that I was making love to Elrohir? What is happening to me?)Elladan thought with his sleep clouded mind,but more he thought,the more he wanted this dream to repeat itself.He wanted to feel shame because of that dream,but all he felt was strange desire mixed with confusion.

"Oh,by the Valar.Elrohir is my brother ,my flesh and blood"Elladan said to himself,angry about thinking how delicious Elrohir would be as a lover tonight. But still his thoughts took him deeper into sin,and the sudden heat flushed his skin.He remembered sucking Elrohir's shaft,and then impaling Elrohir by his cock.He remembered every moan,groan and trust,which made him believe that the dream was real.But it was not.(Well I could make it real)Elladan thought with grin as his hand moved downwards.(Elladan pull yourself together.)Rational thought screamed inside of his head,but body wanted otherwise.

"Oh god..."As the thoughts overwhelmed him,Elladan didn't even realize that he was stroking his own shaft.In his mind he saw Elrohir's face filled with passion,as he fucked his brother over and over again.With a moan Elladan spilled himself on the sheets trembling and calling his brothers name. As he came from the pulls of the passion ,he had realized what he had just done.Shame and fury colored his face,and he hit the wall behind him the the hand.(What is wrong with me,I shouldn't feel any desire towards my brother.This is wrong,and not real.Wrong.But why does it feel so good and right)Elladan fought war with his thoughts all night not knowing that his other half,his brother, was doing the same thing.

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Elrond strolled up and down his chamber musing over his dream.On his face was upset expression,and more frequently deep sighs were only sounds in the empty room.(Why did he think,he can control everything that was happening in his life.Well he certainly can't control or stop other peoples feelings.Like his sons at this moment)Elrond thought while he was still strolling up and down like an lunatic. (But it was only a dream)He thought trying to find some comfort in those words.Deep link that twins shared also affected their father sometimes,and the dream was dreamed tonight by more than two persons.In that moment Elrond realized the truth.Elrohir was the one who started this dream.(Elrohir told me that he loved his brother dearly,but there is more to it,that is hidden behind the curtain). Elrond tried to remember if he saw any signs of changes on his younger son.(By the Valar,How could he fall in love with his own brother)Elrond realized that this is messy situation,and he knew that he will not find solution any time soon.He thought about confronting his younger son,but he changed his mind.

"They cannot be together,it's not right.It's a sin." Elrond said to himself,while he took the seat beside fireplace.But still maybe there is some hope.Maybe Elladan doesn't have any lovers feelings for his twin.(But maybe I am wrong,and maybe I should let it all go).

"Arghhh..Celebrian how I need you this night."His life used to be much simpler when he had his wife Celebrian around.She was the rock that he clung to,and now that she was gone,Elrond was lost and didn't know what to do in these troublesome situations.Elrond knew that he needed advice on this matter.He prayed that this madness that took Elrohir would somehow pass,and let his younger son be.(Oh Valar,Have mercy on me and strike me with thunder from above.How am I to handle this.)

tbc......