The Hardest Thing

If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that've hurt you
And you'd stay

I don't know why I did the things I did
I don't know why I said the things I said
Prides like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't wanna see you go
I know I made you cry, but baby..
~Cher: If I Could Turn Back Time~

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Orlando led Viggo to the car and he drove them home. On the ride Viggo was silent thinking about what he'd done. He knew Orli's silence was not a good thing. Orli was never silent even if he was mad at him. But he said nothing on the way home. He simply drove, staring straight ahead into the darkness. The ten minute drive seemed like hours to Viggo. As they drew near their house he felt a sense of dread. He had to force himself out of the car and into the house. Orlando strode into the house and into their bedroom. He pulled out a suitcase and he began packing.

"What are you doing?" Viggo asked shocked.

"Leaving." came the clipped reply.

"But why?" Viggo simply didn't understand. Hadn't they professed their love only moments ago?

Orlando whirled around to face him, anger snapping from his dark eyes. "You think you can say those horrid things to me and think that it'd all be ok? Fuck you Viggo. I love you but what you did was unexcuseable. I know why you did it but I need space now to see if I want to go on with you." Orlando snapped the suitcase shut and he stormed out of the house, slamming the door behind him. Viggo fell to his knees he was crying so hard he could barely breathe. He grabbed up the phone and he called the person that came to mind first.

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(If I could turn back time)
My world was shattered, I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart
You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darlin then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong
I know I was blind, and darlin...
~Cher~

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Sean Bean woke up to the sound of the phone ringing. Glancing at the clock he saw it was 3 am, grimacing he picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Sean?" Viggos voice was shaking and clogged with tears. "Oh Sean I really fucked up. He left...he packed up and left. I...I..." Viggo said in a rush of tears.

"Viggo just calm down. I'll be right over ok?"

"Ok." Viggo said as he hung up.

Sean sighed and got dressed quickly. Viggo needed help and he would try to help him.

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If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that've hurt you
and you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give'em all to you
and you'd love me, love me, like you used to do
~Cher~

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Viggo was lying on the floor sobbing when Sean showed up. The phone hung limply in his hand and his shoulders shook with his tears.

"Come on mate let's get you into bed." Sean said as he hauled Viggo to his feet.

"No. Bed's empty." Viggo moaned as a wave of nausea hit him.

"I know love I know. Come on then, lets go. Atta boy." Sean led him into his room and laid Viggo on the bed. Sean pulled off Viggo's jacket, shoes and socks. He laid a blanket over his friend and he left the room. Viggo sighed and let the darkness claim him.

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If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that've hurt you
and you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give'em all to you
and you'd love me, love me, like you used to do
~Cher~

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Sean woke up when the door opened quietly and then shut. He had fallen asleep on the couch without meaning to. He looked up and was momentarily startled to see Orlando standing there in front of him.

"Forget something mate?" Sean asked with a bit of acid in his voice.

Orlando nodded his head forlornly. "My heart."

Sean smiled slightly gesturing to the bedroom. "He's in there he cried himself to sleep after you left. He called me and he was crying so hard he could barely breathe. I came over and put him to bed. And thats all that happened." Sean said not wanting Orlando to get the wrong impression. Orlando nodded understanding as Sean got up and headed for the door. A low voice stopped him.

"Sean?"

Turning he looked at Orli. "Yes Orli?"

"Thank you."

Sean bowed his head accepting the thank you with cool british detachment. Orlando watched as Sean left before he entered the bedroom. Viggo looked so pathetic laying there with tears tracks running down his face. Just seeing those Orli felt himself start to cry. He stepped toward the bed but froze when Viggo woke up.

Viggo saw a dark shape standing next to the bed. "Sean?"

"No it's me Vig."

Viggo sat up in shock at Orli's voice. "Orli." the words were a whispered prayer.

"Oh Vig I'm so sorry. Can you ever forgive me?" Orli's voice quavered as he spoke.

"Of course I can hon. I started this." Viggo laid back down and scooted over next to the wall. He held his arms open waiting for Orli to join him. Orli smiled and stripped down to his boxers. He eagerly climbed into bed and into Viggo's arms.

"I love you." they whispered at the same time before they kissed and fell asleep.

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Let me be the one you call
If you jump i'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
~Crash and Burn by Savage Garden~

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