Slash Me Twice
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Category:
Lord of the Rings Movies › General › Lord of the Ring Stars
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
25
Views:
1,562
Reviews:
1
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
This is work of fiction! I do not know the celebrity(ies) I am writing about, and I do not profit from these writings.
Freak
Freak
I sit down on one of the fake stones, wishing I had some orcs to slaughter. What I just did ought to get an award for the most unromantic decleration of love possible. Why am I such a bloody fucking fool? How could I just throw that in his face and run away?
Jesus fucking Christ. Sean's probably talking to Orlando about what I said right now. They're friends after all. And no matter what Orlando said earlier, he will tell Sean that I intentionally tripped him if Sean tells him what I just said.
I'm sure everyone must have heard my pained groan and guessed where I am. Well, let them come. Let them come and say what they have to say, I don't intend to be here to hear it. Fuck Pete and the damned contract, damn them all to hell, I can't go on like this anymore.
I've never wanted much and all I want right now is Sean. Want Sean to hold me, to tell me that he doesn't hate me and that he'll give me a chance, want Sean to look at me as though he might just like me and I've destroyed every chance of that ever happening. How could he after what just happened? And when for fuck's sake did I start crying? I never cry. At least not since Exene left me.
Why are spiders the only killable things down here? I need to destroy something! And I need to get away right now, before someone accidentally manages to find me. Only have to get away from the sets unnoticed.
~***~
I don't know how I managed it but no one tried to talk to me when I left. Better for them anyway. I don't know what I would've done. I seem to do that a lot lately. Not knowing, I mean. Everything's just too fucked up and the only thing I seem to be capable of is making it worse.
"Fuck it all!" I yell at the innocent wall, wondering at how good it felt. No, nothing feels good. Not without Sean. I don't want it anymore. This time I'll do it. I barely notice the tears streaming down my face as I grab my ceremonial dagger and stalk into the bathroom.
This time I'll finally end it.
I sit down on one of the fake stones, wishing I had some orcs to slaughter. What I just did ought to get an award for the most unromantic decleration of love possible. Why am I such a bloody fucking fool? How could I just throw that in his face and run away?
Jesus fucking Christ. Sean's probably talking to Orlando about what I said right now. They're friends after all. And no matter what Orlando said earlier, he will tell Sean that I intentionally tripped him if Sean tells him what I just said.
I'm sure everyone must have heard my pained groan and guessed where I am. Well, let them come. Let them come and say what they have to say, I don't intend to be here to hear it. Fuck Pete and the damned contract, damn them all to hell, I can't go on like this anymore.
I've never wanted much and all I want right now is Sean. Want Sean to hold me, to tell me that he doesn't hate me and that he'll give me a chance, want Sean to look at me as though he might just like me and I've destroyed every chance of that ever happening. How could he after what just happened? And when for fuck's sake did I start crying? I never cry. At least not since Exene left me.
Why are spiders the only killable things down here? I need to destroy something! And I need to get away right now, before someone accidentally manages to find me. Only have to get away from the sets unnoticed.
~***~
I don't know how I managed it but no one tried to talk to me when I left. Better for them anyway. I don't know what I would've done. I seem to do that a lot lately. Not knowing, I mean. Everything's just too fucked up and the only thing I seem to be capable of is making it worse.
"Fuck it all!" I yell at the innocent wall, wondering at how good it felt. No, nothing feels good. Not without Sean. I don't want it anymore. This time I'll do it. I barely notice the tears streaming down my face as I grab my ceremonial dagger and stalk into the bathroom.
This time I'll finally end it.